Patters

i'm sorry it took me so long...to come around

2006-02-05T07:59:00.000-08:00

awwwww...where to start. short term was a blast...to freakin short, but a blast. i did good in my class and work was awesome. two of our proposal for the conference were accepted. that means i have a mission at work! i will be leading a workshop on noncompetitive sports and self-esteem with jo and jose and one on designing your own hunger/homelessness week with jo. the conference is gonna be awesome. a free weekend in nashville!

music to check out: yellowcard ~ lights and sounds
the fray ~ how to save a life
day at the fair ~ rocking chair years
further seems forever ~ hide nothing

anyway...i saw hostel last night. i HATE movies with so much blood and guts and stuff. plus the plot was ridiculus. anyway, it was fun though. i had a blast hanging out and gettin sick at the movie. big thanks to sam for warning about all the nastiness.

spring term has officially begun...five classes: social stats, theories, appalachian lit, psych, and intro to japan. i have 16 books for the semester. i'm gonna be well read by the end of this one. ps- i am officially a senior!

i went to a hawaiin themed party last night. it was awesome. i got to dance like a white boy and eat some free chicken. so much fun! now today starts the homework.

you that emotional high? still there...sdfjhsakldflovelsahzflksjhdf is beautiful

the space between, that's where i'll be hiding waiting for you

2006-01-11T19:50:00.000-08:00

so, yep, i'm listening to some dave matthews band right now. man, this guy can write music. every single one of their songs is awesome. anyway...

short term has been the most insane so far. work picked up and class is awesome. i'm lovin this fast paced sprint that we're doing now. though i think the grind is killing me. working with the freshmen has been awesome. i've gotten to lead some workshops and discussions while learning a bit myself. we are going to the goatwalker coffeehouse in louisville this weekend. this is always an eye-opening experience for everyone. kind of an equalizer between those who have a home and those without. work is good.

class is good too. leadership. i have a test tomorrow. i am having trouble studying for it though. it's over half the book and a lot of it is sorta common sense. it's just a matter of putting into multiple choice questions and diagrams. i'm not excited about it, but i figure i'll study for another hour or two, then call it quits and if i mess it up, then i mess it up.

my parents came up yesterday. i feel bad because i had to work on a paper and bonner stuff while they were here. i got to hang out for a few hours with them though. my dad bought a new guitar and he wanted me to check it out. it's pretty nice. we went to the eye doctor today and got glasses and new contacts...i am getting more blind...but i got some cool glasses

but the BIG news is what i got today. my parents went shopping around the stores here in berea and bought me a mandolin! it's really awesome too. i can't wait to learn how to play it. something to do for the three day weekend. it's all pretty and hollow and i just wanna hold it all the time.

anyway, i guess i better go study some more. goodnight!

still on that emotional high...good day to be alive!

still so young...not desperate for attention

2006-01-02T23:52:00.000-08:00

man, it feels so good to be back in berea...for multiple reasons...life is really good right now

but the break was a pleasant surprise. i caught up with some old friends and got a lot of rest. skiing was sweet. i only fell twice in two days and those were over huge jumps. christmas was good, new years was awesome and this short term is gonna rock.

as far as music, i got a bunch of cds from logan while he was in. stuff like armor for sleep and estelle. but i have been stuck on panic at the disco. it's a neat band that sounds like fall out boy you can dance to.

so i am sitting up waiting for sam to call. we are going to the airport at 4am. jose and i took a walk to get some slurpees and catch up on break. so i figure no sleep tonight. first day o' class tomorrow..or later on today. i'm really excited about the class

so that's all..nothing deep. happy 2006...let's drink to friends.

man, life is so good right now...such an emotional high.

call me back when word is that she's gone

2005-12-22T23:51:00.000-08:00

so this is post 100...woot! i've been listening to boxcar racer a lot these days..

so it's 3am and i can't sleep. kristi just called and we chatted for a few minutes. i am starting to get homesick for berea...go figure. but life has been good here. got my grades: 3.91! i'm excited...now i can slack off next term! probably not...i'm too compulsive.

went to see narnia. it was a good movie. the little girl in it was precious. she made me smile. i'm gonna go see the ringer tomorrow...i know it will be stupid, but in a good way.

break has been good, i got to see a lot of high school friends at the gbcs production and it was awesome...well, not the production, but the friends were nice. i have also been playing a lot of final fantasy 3 on super nintendo. man, that game is so cool.

okay, i'm gonna go take some cold medicine and try to fall asleep.

pop rocks and coke

2005-12-17T21:14:00.000-08:00

sitting at home...with no homework...normally, it should be a good thing, right? i guess i don't know what to do with free time. but it's been great. i've just been playing super nintendo and talking on the phone with friends.

so finals went well, i think i'm gonna come out okay with grades. final papers so far have all come back as good grades, so that makes those allnighters worth something. oh yeah! go check out the angels and airwaves site and also the plus 44 site. they got music up. maybe blink's split was a good thing. anyway, there is gonna be some kickin cds coming out next year.

i think i might go skiing tomorrow....

i disappeared yesterday....

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up

2005-12-13T13:04:00.000-08:00

New Year Resolutions

Second guess this and take a step back
You’re at the top of my list
It’s all that I want this year
I’ve been thinking of you and this what you’re getting from me

A hopeful look in your direction
A sleepless night spent on you
A clumsy song to get your attention
For now This all I can do:

Because I wrote you this song
Just to let you know
You can call me up
When it starts to snow this Christmas
This New Year is useless
I’ll break all of my resolutions
After the buzz and the alcohol breaks
The ball will drop and we’ll have to say
All our resolutions and what will change
The ones I keep will be ones I made for you.

So count this one down and raise up your glass
We’ll drink to the year and a first kiss
It’s all that I want this year
I’ve been thinking of you and this what you’re getting from me

A hopeful look in your direction
A sleepless night spent on you
A clumsy song to get your attention
For now This all I can do:

Because I wrote you this song
Just to let you know
You can call me up
When it starts to snow this Christmas
This New Year is useless
I’ll break all of my resolutions
After the buzz and the alcohol breaks
The ball will drop and we’ll have to say
All our resolutions and what will change
The ones I keep will be ones I made for you.

I wrote this!!! I am so cool! ...not really, just an emo kid
yep, i'm sappy like that but it sounds really cool with music. Steve! we gotta record it..i'm thinking a super salamander part 2 this summer. I miss being in a band

Finals are going good so far...one to go. work is winding down...short term is gonna rule!

party thursday...what?

so long, astoria

2005-12-11T16:19:00.000-08:00

ROCKIN OUT AT THE COFFEE HOUSE!!!

so i have been listening to the ataris "so long, astoria" so much this weekend. i think i've heard the whole album this weekend like 10 times. i think that cd is like the soundtrack to my life...i dunno, i really like it.

so the papers are done! 10 page paper on atheism, 17 pages on mc dowell county, and 30 pages on swaziland...i don't know how they're gonna turn out, but i could care less. finals are gonna be a relief to take. then it's home!

not too much in the life of pat..these days

"so long astoria, i've found a map to buried treasure..we'll still have our stories, battles scars, battleships and wounded hearts, broken bones and all the best of friendships."

coffee house!

2005-12-08T20:00:00.000-08:00

man, the coffee house was so much fun. it was pretty everyone hanging out, while we just played around with the microphone and guitar. herbie and i played dammit and no scrubs..it was funny. i played some eveningside songs...ponitiac racer, my departure and forget my name. plus i played a new song called new year resolutions. i wrote it this week. it's a love song. i wanna record it and put some extra stuff with it. i also played there is, letters to god and am i wrong. it was soo much fun. herbie rocked it up with some bone thugs in harmony and kenny rogers.

i turned in my swaziland paper today...30 pages. i spent roughly 13 hours on it yesterday and i presented it today. i think it went well. all i have left is my community analysis of mcdowell county. it's due tomorrow at 5pm...got eighteen hours to get it done...i have two pages...i better get on this...it'll be good

but the HUGE news is that i got my job for next summer! i had my interview yesterday and they called me and offered me a position at hiram house camp in cleveland!!! i am so excited. it;ll be a new mix of kids with deeper social issues. i'm looking forward to it.

break is gonna be nice. gonna hang out with some friends, go skiing, and hopefully have a kickin new years party in tennessee.

time for all-nighter number three! tomorrow is gonna be beautiful when i crash

2005-12-06T23:02:00.000-08:00

sitting here in celts at 2am taking a quick break from paper number 2...swaziland. what can i say? it's actually been a really fun process of research and writing. i'm up to 5 pages and i am not even close to a third done...this is gonna be a huge one. i'm excited. yeah, i'm a nerd.

i wrote a song today. it's called new years resolutions. it's a love song. i really like it and i put music to it. it sounds decent. i'll probably play it at the coffee house on thursday. i'm excited about that. i'm gonna try some bands that i've never covered before: get up kids and matchbook romance and maybe death cab for cutie. we'll see how it goes.

spent all day at the library. i got one paper done and i think that it is actually strong. i also went to the gym today with one of the kids that i work with. i ran two miles. i gotta start getting in shape for summer camp. speaking of which, i have my interview for hiram house camp tomorrow around 3pm. i'm a little nervous about it.

so i know it sounds bad, but i got the rent soundtrack from a friend and i must say that some of the songs are pretty good on it. such a good movie with a great meaning.

athiest paper is done...appalachia paper has two pages...swaziland paper has 5...presentation not started...come friday, i'll sleep...or get drunk...maybe both??

living in america at the end of the millennia

2005-12-04T10:54:00.000-08:00

two weeks to go. i've gotten one of my four papers done...45 pages to do this week. lotsa fun! they'll get done. i did get an A on my presentation and paper in my appalachia class so confidence is high.

i bought a super nintendo...holding on to my childhood!

so here i am procrastinating. i'm about to pull a 22 hour marathon. the goal is to get two papers done. one is using two theories of deviance to examine atheism in america as social deviance. the other is a look at the development of mcdowell county. sounds fun right?

i'm looking forward to the break though. i really do not want to be home the whole time though. i think i'll be spending most of the time hanging out with friends from home and berea. i love my family, and i'm looking forward to seeing them and hopefully moving to a new house! plus skiing! i'm determined to go at least twice this year. once to winterplace and then on run at snowshoe. i love the winter.

so i have this great feeling right now. one of those, it's all gonna be okay feelings. nothing is really wrong, but i just know that it's gonna be a great end of the semester. right now, it's all about holding onto friends and enjoying time with everyone.

so i went to see the movie rent it was pretty good for a musical. very emotional.

okay, thus begins the marathon...pray for me

18 to go

2005-11-27T20:21:00.000-08:00

that's right! 18 days until the end of the semester. then it's a break without any assignments or readings over my head.

this past break was good. short, but good. i am glad to be back in berea though. i managed to get absolutely nothing done on anything. which means...an all-nighter! my specialty this semester apparently. this will be a good one though. tonight, in the span of 16 hours, i need to get a paper, presentation and a rough draft out for my appalachia class. i can do it. tomorrow night, i am doing nothing. i'm gonna alternate these mothers. tuesday night will be my development paper, as well as thursday night. finally, saturday will be spent writing my paper on atheism. i save the best for last.

but the break was awesome. i got to see some old friends and hang out for a long time with them. got to see steve, lando, cole, ashley, stephanie, and michael. it was great. long night at the pancake house will never be forgotten. i also got to hang out with some family too. three thanksgiving parties, got some new shoes and a sweet coat.

current obssession: death cab for cutie "plans". such a great cd.

good break...

paper time...here goes

buildings tumble

2005-11-20T12:31:00.000-08:00

wow, it's been ages since i've updated this thing. this past semester has been one of craziness and other stuff. i've learned a lot about life and i must say that i am stronger and wiser for it. i still hold some regrets, but that's life, but rest assured, i think i've got it figured out. patience has been a rock this past semester and will continue to be for awhile...

so enough with the emo shit. life has been awesome. i have come to realize the importance of friends and the bonds that i have will take a lot to break. to everyone who has impacted me one way or the other, given me that cheerful smile, that uplifting hug...you all rock!

after the hurricane coffee house, i thought that things might slow down...nope. classes and work picked back up and now that i have taken over the sociology club, it's been fun. i find myself kinda lost in free time. of course, it is always good to just relax and chill with friends. i find myself not so apprehensive about school. i also got into the phi alpha theta honor society. it's for history...go figure

i went to a conference with joellen last weekend. we drove to carlisle, pa for the most pointless conference ever. but the ride there and back was priceless. it was awesome, plus i got to learn more about the one campaign. jo and i (mostly jo) got to do a homelessness and poverty awareness week on the campus too. it was fun and i think now we are gonna lead a workshop on it at a conference in nashville next semester.

anyway, i gotta run, bonner time! junior recommittment ceremony...should be a blast. then it's an all-nighter!! hooray...break is coming up. speaking of which, i am totally looking forward to getting very intoxicated with some friends back home. see ya then and have a great day!

yes sir

2005-10-09T16:22:00.000-07:00

http://www.berea.edu/bcnow/story.asp?ArticleID=498

coverage of the events that took place at the coffee house.

so far this weekend has been somewhat restful. i went to lexington with some friends on friday and then jo and i went to richmond on saturday to buy some clothes and alcohol. i went for a drive and then i hung out for a bit in kettering with shawn, holly, sam, mary ellen, and rhiannon. got a little tipsy.

today has been laid back. i was wide awake at 6:30, so i did some laundry and some writing. i'm trying to write a few songs. i might be playing at the kettering coffee house and i wanna try some new stuff. but as for right now, i plan on playing some thrice songs and brand new. yeah, gonna try thrice. should be interesting.

tonight i'm gonna go over to kettering for some homecookin then i'm gonna come back here and finish my work. I haven't eaten in a few days, i've been kinda sick. i've gone through 1 1/2 bottles of pepto!

so i just bought some rap music from itunes. i'm so cool!

if i don't make your heart skip a beat...

2005-10-08T13:18:00.000-07:00

so i finally made it to reading period. i got a B+ on my appalachia case study midterm. i was excited becuase a lot of people made d's on it. so now, i have a four day weekend. i went to lexington with jo, sarah, moe, and shawn. that was fun. we went to chipotle and then a halloween store. later on that night, i went to steak and shake with sam and ashley.

time to relax. it's been a weird week. i thought it might slow down a little, but not really. i had two all-nighters in a row. the second one wasn't even for school, i just couldn't sleep, so i drove around berea for a few hours, watched some movies and went for a walk. i'm gonna take this time to get some things sorted out in my head. i've been doing a lot and it's been good, i just haven't given time to attend to my stuff, and now it's come full circle. it's all good, just a time to sleep and enjoy with friends.

i gotta do some homwork too. yay!

okay, nap time. got a free day of nothing. it's nice. i'll probably do something later on tonight.

content

2005-10-04T22:42:00.000-07:00

so i just turned in the fundraising report for the coffee house...$848.00! thanks for everyone's help in this endeavor...you all rock!

new straylight run cd...go get it...so good. addictive like the album.

ten speed..if i must, then i must

2005-10-01T21:33:00.000-07:00

that's a lyric from the newest coheed and cambria cd. so good. also, check out the movie crash. very enlightening...so true.

what a crazy week it has been! but it was totally worth it. the coffee house was this week. after some highs and crazy lows the coffee house arrived. it was a great success! we raised a ton of money.

i had a a lot of help to keep me sane this week. amanda, jose, david, jo, freshman bonners, and tons more...thank you all so much. it was totally worth the memories: chopping down grass in the middle of the night in the middle of nowhere with no flashlights, allergy attacks, posting fliers, setting up, shopping for supplies at the dollar store, and a fun time at the event. it's so awesome how much a few college students can accomplish. i have the greatest friends ever!

we had a huge turn out too! a lot of cool performers: poets, guitar players, piano players, bluegrass, gospel, etc. i loved it.

so now it is time to rest. no big projects coming immediately up, so i'm gonna focus on homework and having a good time doing it.

i love my job, i love school, i love my friends...life is so good right now!

college rules!

i hate our government

2005-09-22T23:02:00.000-07:00

i am on a big dasboard confessional kick right now. amanda burned me two of his cds. man, he's got some talent.

not too much going on in the life of patty mcg. i did manage a trip home. mom needed help moving and other opportunities fell through, so i drove home to suprise her. i got to go see lord of war with lando, move some boxes, drink with my mom, and i did not leave until 4am on monday. i got back around 8 to write a paper and attend a meeting with my boss. i got an A on tghe paper by the way.

classes have been good. i dropped economics for a few reasons: it's boring, too black and white, adn boring. i'll take it later. i really don't need to, but it would be good for graduate school. speaking of which, that has become the latest obsession here at berea.

the boys and girls club here in berea is closing down. they can't afford the rent in the building anymore. the city government has given some money, but not even enough to keep the place open for a month. i went to the board's appeal on it. this is where the representative could talk about the situation and try to sway the decision. the b and g club had a bunch of kids there to talk after the main rep, but the board would only let two kids talk. that made me mad. so much to get into right now, but that would be too much. just know that our government has its priorities in the wrong place.

the coheed cd is good.

bed time

hurricane coffee house next week.

finding the words and getting away

2005-09-10T13:15:00.000-07:00

just chillin in my room doing nothing constructive and loving it. the week has been a blur. classes have been good for the most part. i bombed an economics mini-quiz. i dunno, i hate that class so much. it's all in absolutes and so much trust is vested in these stupid theories and models. it's dumb. of course, i'm sure economics majors say the same about socioology.

work has picked up some. the retreat was good. the worship service went well. what was neat is that i am now in charge of putting together a open mic coffee house that will raise money for the hurricane victims. speaking of which, i came across this article that an extreme fundamentalist wrote about how it is a sin to help the victims. god was punishing them...whatever. ihate extremists. but the coffee house is gonna rule. i am having a planning meeting on monday and it is open to a bunch of people. the coffee house is gonna be the 29th. i have the commons reserved. i am excited.

so i am still feeling mixed stuff on the chaplain job. i kinda wanna get a new job next year just because the chapain job is kinda pointless. they did away with the dorms being required to do service projects which pretty much takes away my main objective. a lot of people will be graduating in celts and some really cool jobs will be open next year. it's too early to be thinking about next year.

thinking about changing my minor to appalachian studies...what's your opinion?

i'd prefer not to be rescued

2005-09-02T16:53:00.000-07:00

so it has been kinda crazy the past few days.

i spent the week after chaplain training trying to figure out what to do with my job. i did pack and start moving my stuff out of the house. jose and jo came back which was awesome. we all went to see the 40 year old virgin...5 minutes into it, jose was like: this is too much of pat. anyway, it's a great movie. good message.

after a somewhat restful week, i spoke at orientation again and bought my books. i got off easy on books, only 180 dollars. and they look so cool. on is about serial murderers and victim selection. i am really excited about classes. i also moved into my supercool shoebox room. it's not too bad. i have my bed lofted so i could put my desk under it. i have a decent amount of space. my walls are covered in pictures from camp and new orleans. i like it.

after a short meeting with two of my bosses on monday, i went home to get some stuff. that was a nice time to rest. i needed it. i really did not have much of a summer break at home, but it was nice to be home for a night. i had to come back the next day to see some friends and prepare for class.

so first day of class..good stuff. my appalachia class is gonna be awesome. my project for the class is gonna be on mcdowell county, wv. i was gonna do raleigh but i did the same thing for a class last semester and mcdowell county is more interesting. deviance is gonna be sweet. we get to visit a prison and stuff. water fitness...my instructor is this old grandma type that runs around the pool. it cracks me up. macroeconomics is boring. i wanted to gouge my eyes out in class today. i also have the sociology of development on tuesdays and thursdays. it's gonna be fun too. we all have to keep up with a third world nation the whole semester. it's a big discussion class...kinda like a mini-UN.

work is good. i am going on the CELTS retreat tomorrow. i get to do a worship service on sunday. i've never led one before, so i am kinda scared. i still gotta find a topic.

okay, time for homework...already

2005-08-23T13:43:00.000-07:00

jack's mannequin...everything in transit...good stuff. go get it.

school starts next week.

as i begin

2005-08-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

so this is it. i am now 21 and i still feel like a 16 year old. but nonetheless, i am now a full fledged adult. to celebrate this, i took a short little trip to new orleans where over the course of three days, got hammered a few times and drank quite a bit...not to the point of dangerous drinking, just enough to send me staggering back to my hotel singing kanye west songs. so this was partying.

home was good. i got to see chris and jessica, had two picnics and birthed an idea for the next summer. my dad was sent to the emergency room on my home, so i just pulled off a few exits early to go hang out with him for awhile. i found him in the hall on stretcher waiting for a room. after they got him situated, we talked about the summer, camps, and the chaplain job. suddenly, the idea to bring back his camp came up. he used to run this free camp for children who were going into middle school to make the transition easier. kinda like a free 4-h camp for a targeted age group, except no 4-h b/s...just a lot of camp songs. anyway, he said that it could be a possibility to bring this program back if the funding was available. all they would need is someone to take it over. me. that would be so awesome. i could find some berea kids to come be counselors and rock out this camp. very iffy right now and not too possible, but if the right people like it, then it might happen. details later. but getting to hang out in the hospital with my parents for a few hours was really cool. i have the most awesome parents ever.

but today was perhaps the best day of this week so far. today was the student chaplain training. i had been dreading this for a long time but when i got there, i was pleasantly suprised. icebreakers, meals, a lot of information and the coolest retreat location ever made this an awesome day. so here comes the confessional...

today just got me really excited about being a chaplain. i got a new bible, two chaplain shirts, some business cards and a planner today at the retreat. i really want to make the most of this job. like, i was excited about people who care last year, but i have never had this feeling of like it being a mission or something. i dunno, i have been having so many ideas spinning in my head that i could take this job. this also got me to reflect on my life too. am i doing it right? so today, i am thinking that the drinking thing is gonna go on hold and i gotta clean up my language too. i just felt so compelled to be a better person today.

i also got this feeling that despite everything going on at home with my dad, mom, and moving; it's all gonna be okay. this is a great high and i hope that it lasts for awhile. i am so afraid of burning out, but i think that i am going into this school year with new motivations that will keep me enthused for the mostpart and a validation to do my job well.

i just gotta keep it up get my ideas into action...if all goes to plan, junior year will be the best ever!

retirement at the age of 20

2005-08-10T15:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday marked the official ending of sfa day camp. it had its ups and downs (more ups than downs) but all in all, i must say that it rocked and kicked butt. the kids had fun, the staff was pretty cool and all issues were pretty much resolved before staff meetings. we had our final reflection yesterday evening with a three hour pool party. heck yeah! it went really well despite the attitude of a certain staff member. the rest of us had a good time though.

i find myself wanting to stay again, but i know that if i were to stay again then i would not be getting the experience that a summer of service is made for. hopefully next summer i'll be in ohio at a new camp with new kids.

so i am just chillin in the office trying to get this scrapbook made. i just 2 hours on three pages of it. but it is fun. reminds of being in elementary school doing art projects. it's coming along.

tomorrow i have a final meeting with two of my bosses to discuss camp and my job for the coming year.

i got to do some splinter cell stuff in my house this morning. our a-hole of a landlord wants me to pay an extra 25 dollars a week since i moved in late. legally, he has no power to do that. but he can make it so freaking awkward that we have to avoid him like the plague. anyway, he decided to mow the grass today early in the morning. he had a confrontation with ryan and ryan called to warn us. so, for an hour, kristi and i sat in the bathroom waiting for him to get to the back yard so we could make a mad dash for our cars. so, i went all splinter cell through the house, trying to figure out where this dude was while trying not to be seen. sounds retarded, but it was a rush. finally, while he was in the side yard hacking at vines with a machette, kristi made her escape. a few more rounds around the house with some ducking, crawling, and even a swift spin around a corner, i found him outside of our laundry room. after this, he wandered into our backyard and sat on the side of the trampoline. this is where i made my daring escape from the terrorist landlord. i grabbed my bag, snuck outside, sidestepped around all of his lawn mowing tools and stealthly made it to my car. once here, i swiftly got in, started the engine and zoomed out with out being detected. i am so cool! i could be a spy if i wanted too!

okay, not really cool, but it was fun and scary at the same time.

still stuck on the new amsterdams and for some reason american idiot by green day.

going home on friday and coming back on sunday for new orleans!!!

say goodnight but mean goodbye

2005-08-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

it's been crazy. camp is coming to its close and i am ready for it to be done. i'm over it i guess. good reasons though...
that regression that i spoke of earlier showed its ugly face in the form of competition. we played capture the flag and a few counselors played the game at a 20 year old level with a 5th grade mentality. the sad part was one of my bosses blaming the activity and not the counselors. needless to say, i was ready to fight. anyway, i got over it.

this weekend was killer. david and i drove up to cleveland to see sarah g and jose. on the way up, we got pulled over and david got a ticket. we got to hiram house around midnight. we stayed up with some of the staff there and had a good time. plus i got to see the camp. the next day, we had to hide from the camp owner in the shower becuase we weren't supposed to be there. we headed to get some lunch at panera and then to the mall to hang out. sarah got another earring and jose picked up the new rufio cd. after that, we went back to camp where i met all the people that i originally would have worked with had i gone there. they are some pretty cool people. we went to dinner and then to a massive sam ash guitar store where i came so close to buying a guitar. after that, we went bowling (in solon...like the old drew carrey theme song). we ended the night at sarah g's house.

the next day was insane...CEDAR POINT! holy crap. crazy rides and hardly any lines. we managed to piss off a girl in the first ride we went to. we were walking through all the lanes and decided to play follow the leader. so we started spinning around the turns, not bothering anyone when this little teenage fat girl with braces yelled at us for no reason...she called us retarded. everytime our lanes went by each other, we started spinning. so got so pissed at us for no reason. so when we were on the ride, we were on the same one with her and we kept yelling how retarded it was. yeah...we're dumb college kids. but the park is amazing. we also spent the day talking in hick accents and yelling like that across rides and screaming for jesus on rollercosaters. needless to say, cedar point was awesome. i got a family guy stuffed animal and a snoopy cup.

on the way back to hiram house, we went to walmart where we peer pressured jose into buying an ipod. he got one with a color screen. it's cool. after that, we said our goodbyes and hit the road. we got home around 4am today. we left cleveland around 9pm. it was a sweet weekend.

anyway, i really want to work at that camp next year now. we'll see how it goes.

so as for music, i have been getting into the new amsterdams. i got worse for the wear and it is awesome. check them out. you can download their new ep at their website.

okay, until the next adventure...

two tickets to watch the world cave in

2005-07-25T22:03:00.000-07:00

i guess it has been a few since the last post on this thing. not too much has gone on...

i am in the midst of the final session of day camp...part of me is relieved while another is gonna miss it...the other part of me has been too busy playing silent hill 4 (messed up). me missing the last two days has been kinda weird. all i can say is that i walked into work today feeling very unprepared. people in the office seem to be weird and the day camp staff is starting to feel the end of the summer. the day was good...but it could have been great. i dunno, it seems like it's a regression...we have become too comfortable with just winging it on some things and it kills me. but it has worked for the mostpart. i am gonna miss camp, but i am ready to check out new things. will i stay next summer? ...................no idea.....

anyway, camp rainbow was awesome! i got to work with a few kids with physical handicaps and it was so eye-opening. these were some amazing kids. this is where i can't see people supporting abortion. these kids are so capable of anything with just a little help. anyway, i'll get off of my soapbox....
well just say that the camp was really cool and those children were so amazing.

i have been listening to a lot of different music lately. some good stuff includes: rufio the comfort of home, jamisonparker sleepwalker, the anniversary design of a nervous breakdown and the live cd of the get up kids. also, some really cool songs are "take me home please" by reggie and the full effect and "watch the world cave in" by the new amsterdams and "lion and the lamb" by the get up kids. they are on these free cds that they were handing out at the get up kids show.

anyway, it's been a rad summer and it is not over. i am looking forward to the blowout in new orleans and a possible trip to cedar point this weekend.

still looking forward to fall term though. i miss everyone.

.....soon.............

getaway car

2005-07-16T22:42:00.000-07:00

if you are a ipod user, anti-ipod, or plan on getting one, go to this and watch this video. http://www.layersmagazine.com/features/feature_cs2/flea.htm

it's funny

i swear.....

check out the new rufio and the all american rejects...both very good albums. my latest though has been the realization that the everpassing moment is the best release from mxpx. i don't know why, but it just is. i can't stop listening to it. their newer stuff is good too, but you can't beat the everpassing moment.

i am officially licensed to fish in kentucky for a year now!

i just saw charlie and the chocolate factory and i must say that it was quite entertaining. i enjoyed it greatly. a nice remake with new twists and a better willy wonka. my parents came up for a few days to see camp. it was fun, i got my phone service fixed and my car battery is working again.

32 days and counting.....

left coast, right coast...i'll take the midwest anyday; and i begin my criminal record

2005-07-10T18:49:00.000-07:00

okay, so this is gonna be two posts in one. why? i am lazy and have things have been a blur these past few days. plus my credit card got stolen. to begin this, i will address the first of my title...here goes:

friday, july 1, 2005. i pull into a waffle house parking lot with kristi around 9:30pm. we just started up a session of camp and the kids were awesome. tonight begins my adventure to the midwest. robert and his friend joe from nitro pull in a little later. kristi takes off. after an omlet at the waffle house we hit the road in a 97 kia sportage. robert took the wheel until we passed louisville and the border of indiana. i pick it up from there. i must say, those things take some getting used to. i drove through indiana and illinois. we hit st. louis around 4am and i drove about fifty miles past the arch. i gave it back to robert so i could grab a nap. come 6am (new time zone) we run out of gas 20 miles outside of kansas city. thank goodness for AAA. they came and gave us some gas. we filled up and headed into town. robert gave the wheel back to me once in the city. we drove around for about 3 hours, hit kansas and got lost. after stumbling on some unsecured wireless, we got directions. kansas city has some crazy roads. for example, we needed exit 2m...exit 2 goes up to y but you have to take three other exits in 2 to get to 2m. we pull up to the house around 2pm. in the middle of nowhere...makes grandview look like urban. awesome place. we hang out there with cody and play guitar for awhile. we then took a nap and then went to a party. i played some frisbee and stuffed myself full of potato salad. we left the party around 6:30...1 1/2 hour until the show...did i mention? this was all for the last get up kids show ever! we park around 7:45 and get in right on time. the two opening bands were okay: veda and lucero. wasn't too into veda, but lucero was cool. then, after the curtains close, we rush the stage. i have a place pretty close to the front. after a few arguments from some preps who think they ruled the place, the lights go dark. we rush even closer. then the some victory music plays and the get up kids take the stage.....wow. no other words to describe. just wow. they played everything i wanted to hear. some highlights include mass pike, action and action, i'll catch you, the one you want, close to me (my favorite), campfire kansas, two encores and the best ender ever: ten minutes. oh man, the crowd was crazy in that song. i pretty much had no control on my movement, but i was one person from the front for most of the time. i came out of the pit drenched in sweat. they played for 2 hours. i bought a t-shirt and got some free cds with the new amsterdams and reggie and the full effect on it. after the show, we drove back to cody's house, loaded up, and hit the road. this was around 2am. i got back to berea around 2pm on sunday. i drove halfway to st. louis and then took back over in indiana until berea. i took a much needed shower and a even more needed nap. i must say, the get up kids show was awesome and it is kinda sad that they are calling it quits, but that is life. i kinda teared up when they said their last goodbye. it is so obvious that these were just five friends who happened to play instruments.

anyway, the inspiration from that show was awesome. so far, i have written five songs...all with different meanings and none about breaking up...about time i say.

okay, onto the second part of the post. after a short week of camp with a few bumps, i said goodbye to these kids. come saturday morning, i wake up around 11am. i get up, play some videogames, eat a quesadilla and then hit the road to corbin. time for a camp trip. shawn, kristi, and i went to bee rock in laurel county, ky. we took her parents too. after packing and setting up in a really cool campground, we go fishing. ten minutes into it, a wildlife guy shows up and asks to see our fishing licenses...well, i do not have one...so...that means a citation. dangit. so, the three of us are standing there while this officer tries to make small talk while he is writing us up a ticket. i just laughed the whole time. so, i begin my life as a criminal with a citation for fishing without a license. hahaha i'm a real rebel. i spent the rest of the evening hiking around the river and playing guitar on top of this big rock. we went to bed around 11 and got up around 9. we went back to corbin for breakfast and then back to berea.

i am now chillin in celts while i snag some extra hours. i am going home the week after next on wednesday to work another camp. camp rainbow. it's a neat camp for handicap children. i am in charge of campfires, entertainment, and the talent show. i am pretty excited. last year's camp was a real eye-opener for me.

in music...the finch cd is a disappointment, but the new foo fighters is good and brand new is working on a new one. rufio releases theirs this week and "mass pike" by the get up kids has become my new song.

okay, i am done for now...when the next expedition occurs, i'll document it for your reading pleasure...

get up kids...i saw their very last performance...oh yeah!

drive it home with one headlight

2005-06-20T18:41:00.000-07:00

well, officially a little halway through with the 2nd session of camp. it is going by really fast. these kids have been awesome! i'm gonna miss them come friday.

anyway, not too much has gone on except a certain roadtrip. on friday night, i got a call from shawn. he had driven home for the weekend to get some clothes. anway, his car broke down and left him stranded in richlands, va. so, on saturday, kristi and i got up and hit the road at 9am to shawn's house. we took I-75 north to boonesborough then we got on 64 east until the mountain parkway. we took that until the very end and then hit 460 south to pikeville. after pikeville, we hit grundy, va and then after a few mountains and curvy roads, we hit richlands at 1:30pm. we got some lunch and shawn, then hit the road. rather than head on back, we drove on north to beckley. i stopped in to see my parents, and then we went into town to sam's club. my ipod was messed up so i took it back and got a new one. kristi bought a 67 ounce thing of hand sanitizer. i showed them around beckley (my old house, gbcs, petland, and the house that my parents bought). we also tried to find lando, but he was nowhere to be found. we met up with my mom at padrino's for some awesome pizza. after that, i went by my grandpa's house to say goodbye. we got on the road around 7pm. around 9pm at huntington, we get off at the west huntington exit and cross the river to ohio to see mary, kristi's roommate. we hung out for a bit and then got back on the road. we stopped in ashland for gas. finally, around 12:00am, we pulled back into berea. ps-i think i know all of the words to every 50 cent song now...thanks kristi.

four states in 15 hours...it ruled!

wrecking hotel rooms

2005-06-12T21:06:00.000-07:00

man, i love this new mxpx cd. but the biggest shock came from the new coldplay cd x,y. definitely a materpiece. i also downloaded the old wallflowers cd bringing down the horse. that's a classic.

today, me, kristi and ryan went to see the amityville horror. i had already seen it and i still left just as shook up as i did the first one. after some chipotle goodness, we headed home. i am now sitting in the office trying to get things ready for the next session. 6-9 year olds for two weeks. i am having some last minute apprehensions on how the first day will go. it should be good though.

so i got to go speak at my college's orientation. they had some forum about the labor program and they wanted a panel of 3 students to talk about their jobs. so, i got to sit at a table on the phelps-stokes stage and talk about how my job led me to pick my major. it was fun. it reminded me of how scared i was when i first came to orientation.

life at the house is well. i like just being able to be around people and hang out. kristi's parents came up on saturday and we grilled hamburgers and installed some air conditioning. we watched hitch on friday (complements of ryan working at blockbuster). during the first half hour kristi was like "god pat, that is so you." (in reference to the fat white guy). needless to say, i got to work on my dance moves. we also watched boogeyman which is one of the worst movies ever. stupid. here, i'll ruin the ending...he gets to six. SURPRISE! thank god it was free.

i have also started reading for a class on appalachia that i will be taking this fall. the reading is actually pretty neat. it is all about the problems of rural areas. for everyone back home, the first reference to wv was mcdowell county.

okay, gotta go make some nametags.

a mile away

2005-06-09T17:14:00.000-07:00

camp so far has been awesome! this first session is almost over and it has been great. the kids have been so awesome and the staff is doing well.

so i made the location change. i moved in with shawn, kristi, and ryan into a house. living alone sucked. i am holding the apartment for david and sam so they will have a place when they get back from brazil.

in other things, go check out panic by mxpx. very good, very raw, very rockin. it echoes more of the renaissance ep they released awhile back. also, check out coldplay's x,y. also a good cd.

okay, pizza time

one trip home...many to the bathroom

2005-06-05T13:54:00.000-07:00

what a week it has been. i got my grades back! three A-'s and two A's and a convo A...meaning a 3.8 for the spring term! i was excited. i guess i rocked the finals.

chris came home before i left for berea. we went and played some golf and hung out with our cousin steve at glade. i must say, any game that has to be played in dress clothes is not a sport. the only good part about golf is when people mess up and making skid marks with the golf cart. it was fun.

i drove back on saturday to get daycamp stuff together. it was a long drive in which my mind debates itself over and over. i got to berea around 9 and stayed up with kristi until 3am talking about life and stuff.

then came training week...

i have never trained people before, so for a first run, i must say that it went quite well. well, i did get sick on tuesday night...meaning, a low-ropes course and decorating, and planning with some body functions out of wack. i decided to drive home on friday to get better.

now it is sunday.

i managed to sleep from 11pm friday night to 10:30am sunday morning. i still feel kinda light headed, but at least everything else has stopped.

gonna head out in a few...camp starts tomorrow

i might be making a location change for the summer...details later

money fights boredom

2005-05-25T18:21:00.000-07:00

i got bored today...i went to sam's club...ipods were there...and i bought one. i must say, these things are pretty neat.

i also cleaned out the barn today.

check out alkaline trio's crimson. very awesome. so much better than anything they have ever released.

alive in wv

2005-05-24T13:45:00.000-07:00

i love having my own laptop and a extra-long ethernet cable. if only they had wireless here...speaking of which, my school's library is getting it! okay, so the drive home was awesome. we left berea around 2pm, got to charleston around 5pm, stopped at the mall, and ended up in chambersburg, pa around 11pm. due to the cold medicine and migraine medicine i had earlier, i wasn't ready for bed. we unloaded jose's stuff, said goodbyes and i started the drive home. i swear, eastern virginia is the most peaceful place at night. there was no one on 81 and i passed maybe three cars on 64...meaning, cruise control at 80 with no worries. i got home around 3:30am.

home is normal. i went to a birthday party for my cousin..he turned 21. the family is kinda edgy with each other. as per usual, everyone is feuding. my brother is coming home at the end of the week. that should be interesting. this whole moving thing is kinda weird. the rooms are emptying slowly and a lot of stuff is gone. plus, once again, i have debate with my parents about religion. i just wanna ask one question: when did we stop being christians and start being known as what church or denomination we are? it's kinda funny, my church (along with my parents) has this thing about mixing churches...makes no sense.

i bought my plane ticket for new orleans!!! we fly down the 15th, hit the beach the 16th, hit bourbon street on the 17th, fly back on the 18th, and then chaplain training the 19th. i am stoked about this trip. i think my family is kinda mad that i am leaving for it. no big family party for it. oh well, it's a 220 well spent.

i head back on sunday. training week is looking kinda iffy. i figure i am gonna go back and spend all night in celts getting things ready for monday. it should be fun.

i got an A on my stats final which gives me a A- in the class! i think the rest of the grades come out thursday.

okay, so i got a few more days to go. my mom is getting kinda pissy with me because i haven't done much this week. i could care less. i've started looking through chaplain stuff and trying to figure out where to go with it. plus i have started day camp stuff. and i am catching up on my comedy central, disney channel and rosanne.

well, i am gonna get back to...nothing...i think felicia and i might go out sometime this week to catch up...that should be interesting since we really haven't had a real conversation since break-up

feels good to be a gangsta

chillin

2005-05-21T11:48:00.000-07:00

oh yes! classes are done, papers are done, and exams were a breeze! so what now????? it's the freakin summer! summer is gonna rule the world! my apartment is awesome, day camp is cool cause i am the boss and a lot of my friends are staying in town! plus...the end of the summer is my 21st birthday with a trip to new orleans for a fun time!

finals week was great. i studied a lot, but for the most part, i spent it with friends and figuring things out. a great night of jello-shots when i should have been studying for stats was the best thing for me. the exams all went well and i got my 24 page social strat paper back. i got a freakin A!!!! i was excited. later that day, i went to applebees with jose, david, sarah g, and samantha. we had a great time making fun of each other and watching the waiter hit on jose and david. we went to barnes and noble. i picked up the most excellent copeland cd in motion. it's really good. we went to cracker barrel with a ton of people that night and this is where a lot of us said our goodbyes for the summer.

friday was awesome too. i got my room packed up and then i went to see star wars with jose and samantha. it was a pretty good movie. last night was awesome. i went out with some people to a karaoke bar. it was a blast. i got a little tipsy, it was a good night.

so now i am just waiting until 1 when i can check out of my dorm and start the long drive home. i am taking jose home to chambersburg, pa. 13 hours on the road..i am excited. i love long drives.

sophomore year rocked...junior year is gonna be even better!

grey skies turn blue

2005-05-15T15:26:00.000-07:00

in some ways, reading period is the worst thing for studying. at least for me it is. after a night of team america, a water war, a few naps, a few hours in a coffee shop, a ninja turtles marathon, and a night of impressions; i sit at my desk on sunday afternoon having only accomplished half of a study guide. i haveno motivation to do anything right now. see, i am blogging when i should be defining things like alienated production and globalization. i know that i can't fail any class, but my procrastination and lack of motivation will definitely cut my grades.. see, i told you all i would scrw up midterm grades. oh well, i really do not care all that much.

not really looking forward to going home all that much. home...that used to be beckley, now it is berea. my parents bought a new house and will be moving in september and everything else at home has changed so much. i have been in this weird melancholy mood now that i realize that i am halfway done with college. i cleaned out my pwc desk the other day, that was kinda hard, that was my baby. but i know that once i get started on other projects, it'll all level out.

this summer is gonna be awesome. the apartment is nice and i have total freedom on it. daycamp is gonna be a learning experience for me. it's funny, i swore that i would never stay here for another summer, but now, i am flirting with the idea of sticking around my last summer.

my room is a mess, at least my side is (sorry shawn). i figure i'll just bag up a ton of stuff and haul it off to goodwill. i am not leaving here until friday. my last exam is on thursday. jose and i are gonna stick around, catch the new star wars flick and then head out to chambersburg, pa the next day. i should be home for roughly a week.

i am looking forward to august a lot too. there is a possibility that i might be spending my 21st birthday in new orleans! the plans are still in the works, but it is looking good!

the poets are just kids who didn't make it

2005-05-12T21:14:00.000-07:00

still stuck on fall out boy....but check out the new dave matthews and weezer

today was the last day of class. come a week from today, sophomore year will be over. two years down, two more to go. it's kinda depressing, but i am just glad to be done with classes. i rocked my anthropology presentation today! i made people laugh! plus i got a 92 on my anthropology test and a 93 on my western civ test (two that i thought that i bombed). finals are not going to be too bad, it's just studying for them. the actual test is a relief.

we also had an awesome water fight at my supervisor's house. i think we all left completely soaked. i had to walk back to my dorm in just my socks.

so tonight is just chillin and watchin movies, study for finals..now? screw that

do it for the scars and stories

2005-05-11T21:10:00.000-07:00

well, after a horrible movie, i dazzled everyone with my d.d.r. skills (i forgot to add that one in the last one)

saturday marked my passing from people who care. the volunteer dinner is over and now this week has been spent on day camp stuff. that has been somewhat good and bad. we found out that we were not as prepared as we thought that we were. two quick meetings next tuesday, team leader selection, and a few phone calls can fix that. i am pretty excited about it. i am not going to be on any team, i am just a floater between the two and i pretty much have total freedom on where i am.

this week was also the week of turning in the final papers. i handed in a 23 page paper on beckley today and i do not know how to feel about it. i think it is good, but ya never know. tomorrow, i have my anthropology presentation: an ethnographic report on the richmond mall food court. i pretty much just watched people in the food court and wrote a ten page paper on it. th presentation should not be too bad.

i got to work with the ultimate journey bonner program today too! that was awesome. a lot of day camp kids come from this program and it got me all excited for the summer.

tomorrow is also my last day of class! funny how the easiest part of the semester always ends up being the final...thank goodness for that

i want a refund

2005-05-07T15:08:00.000-07:00

last night, i saw the dumbest movie in the world: house of wax. i guess i should have expected, and i think i did, i just didn't think that it would be that bad. but it was. it was your typical scary movie, token black guy, the rebel, the girl on her way to self-discovery, the slut (paris hylton: surprise, surprise), the idiot, and the overly jealous boyfriend. in short, everyone dies except for a girl and the rebel becuase the two murderers had a bad childhood with messed up parents. go figure. anyway, the best (and perhaps the funniest part) was when paris bites it. she starts out in her bed (in underwear, shirt and bra). and oh no! there's a killer!!! so she runs (with her shirt half off). she runs into an abandoned warehouse and hides in a car. she finds a stick and manages to hit the attacker once before taking a spear to the face. the whole theater started cheering when she died...it was so stupid. me, jose, sarah, and jo were cracking up the whole time during this because you could tell that the creators were trying too hard to "spice it up." plus paris is a horrible actress.

anyway, any "unexpected" turn was totally expected. i want my money back.

still stuck on this fall out boy cd.

from under the cork tree

2005-05-03T13:25:00.000-07:00

oh yeah! the new fall out boy cd is out and is an instant success. this one is staying in my cd player forever. it is a ten times better more dark version of take this to your grave while still retaining those fun guitar riffs everyone likes. steve...go buy this one--you won't regret it.

i registered for my classes today and after some crazy confusion and complete revamping of my schedule, i cam out with the following: macroeconomics (for grad school), water fitness, deviance, the sociology of development, and community analysis of appalachia. it's gonna be interesting but on mondays, wednesdays, and fridays, i don't have class until noon. i love it.

i am also feeling better about taking the new job. i still don't wanna leave micah 6 but the new chaplain job will be good for me and a ton of fun. the cf fundraiser is finally over too. so now, all i have to do for work is an appreciation dinner. easy stuff.

i also got a new laptop!!!! it is sweet. it is all silver, new and has a wireless card (or something like that). so wherever there is wireless internet, i can use it. it is fast and i love it. the keys also make this neat clicking noise whenever i type. i have no idea what the specs are, but all i know is that has the double of memory as my last laptop. so...yeah

i have a presentation tomorrow on the social stratification of beckley. that should be fun

going for an all-nighter tonight....

it's not the way we fall down

2005-04-29T19:46:00.000-07:00

well, what a week it has been. two tests on monday that i had fun bombing and berea buddies cancelled. the big thing was on wednesday when i went to room selection. i got a single in danforth!!! i'm pretty stoked. my own room. anyway...the even bigger thing was the service awards banquet. after a terrific convo and chaplain training (which went well), i had borrow shawn's dress shoes, and a tie from jose that i didn't wear. anyway, i get there to this fancy room with like three forks and a bunch of plates in front of me. thanks to caroline and oliver, i didn't get lost in the forks. so, after some speeches, they go on to do the student service awards. the second presenter was my boss heather and they called me up. she read this letter about me (i almost cried) and then gave me an award and a hug. i got the emily graham student volunteer service award. i got back to my table to look at the certificate.

and then i found a 1000 dollars with my name on it. i almost screamed. so, after the awards, i went and secured my apartment for the summer, paid rent, and bought a futon.

so now, almost three weeks to go

every mistake that i made, i couldn't have made without you

2005-04-23T17:25:00.000-07:00

so it has been awhile since my last post, so i will do my best to catch you up in the crazy life of patrick mcgrady:

i pulled one more all-nighter to finish a rough draft for social strat. it's not a good paper and i know it. i did it mainly for the 10 points completion grade toward the final grade of the project. i got it back yesterday and it was...well, half-way there. anyway, i have notes for inspiration, now i just gotta focus and write it good. i got a 96 on my last test in that class!

i am also officially finished with people who care outings as coordinator for the program. it was a good run, but i have to turn the program over to another eager freshman while i move on to a new desk in the office for celts chaplain. this is a melancholy transition. although i did not create pwc, i believe that i pushed its boundaries and did some pretty cool things with it. as i stare at my labor form for next year, i get kinda depressed on leaving my program. plus, there is micah 6. i can still volunteer with it, but i am gonna miss those quirky phone calls from those cool old ladies whom i got to know very well. the chaplain job is gonna rock though! new people to work with on new programs and stuff. i guess this is growing up

along with this transition, stress comes in the form of research papers, a fundraiser, two presentations, and numerous tests before finals. this fundraiser is getting to me. i got the dj reserved, fliers made, and table tents set. but in the midst of getting donations for prizes, my "staff" decides to not show up. i think she is sick. so, when my mom called me on friday to tell me that i needed to come home soon and pack stuff (cause they are moving again), i just went off the deepend. i went to class, did some yoga, walked to my car, and drove home. the service trip was cancelled. i got home, talked to my mom and things are cool. i just needed a break away from berea and work. i spent some time at the library today revising my social strat paper and got to noticing that actually, i am doing pretty good on it. i came home, watched some tv and now i am procrastinating. i have a neat office set up in the upstairs with my laptop, notes, and plenty of space to pace around while i rack my brain for ideas. tonight will be my all-nighter. i'm gonna work on my paper, get some sleep, go see my family, and then hit the road. once i am back in berea, it is go time. two tests on monday.

the apartment search is going, i called a guy yesterday about one, hopefully we'll hear something this week.

so this week i got room selection. i am gonna go for a single in danforth. i think that it will work out. i am junior by credit, and freshmen last year got singles. so now i just gotta get a good lottery number.

i also have chaplain training too. or a "mini-retreat." i am gonna get to meet my fellow chaplains. just looking at some of the names, i think that i might come out as somewhat liberal in the group...which is funny i think. i think it will be a good group of people to work with. following that is the service awards banquet.

summer camp staff is finally hired! i interviewed the last person myself and immediately offered him the job. it is gonna be a good summer, though it just hit me that i have be the expert on chidren's behavior. see, last year, we all looked up to the director as the final say on child discipline and stuff and now this year i have to be that authority. responsiblity...shudder.

okay, so that is it for now. i'll be back in berea around 7pm tomorrow.

futures

2005-04-13T12:38:00.000-07:00

today has been somewhat unproductive. i went to statistics and then cam back and slept through class until now. oh, but tonight will...all nighter. goal: two papers and a domain analysis. should be fun

i wanted to just walk out of anthropology yesterday. we were going over domain analysis stuff when this one environmentalist hippy chick with dreds, hairy legs, and odor comes walking in...one hour late. so, what does the professor do? she welcomes the questions of the late girl...and then, after all of this, the teacher decides to let us out. i can't stand it when people are late. oh well

i found the ninja turtles triology yesterday in a big box set. yes, this is the trilogy. star wars doesn't even come close to the ninja turtles. i bought it. i also got the neutral agreement cds too. they are pretty good.

i also figured out my class schedule for next term. 20 hours of class time. 4.25 credits: with an sociology course on appalachia, sociology of development and scocial change, research methods, sustainability and environmental studies lab, and walking for fitness. next year should be fun. no class until 10, but i have to stay busy past five on all days to get my 15 hours of work. speaking of which, i got my official acceptance letter to be a chaplain. i am pretty stoked. i get a new desk in the office, and i still get to help out with pwc. i have a retreat for that soon.

i also have been invited some awards banquet. i get to dress up and stuff and get free food! details on that later...

i have also been reading this book called "nickel and dimed" by barbara ehrenreich. everyone should read it. it is about people who work in low wage jobs and how pay that is a few above minimum wage does not cut it. it might sound boring, but this middle class woman goes to three places and tries to survive for a month. she is a good writer to. i can't stop reading it. it is for a class, but i am like 50 pages ahead cause it is that good.

room selection is coming up soon...let's hear it for single in danforth....hopefully.

okay, i'm hungry

the room is on fire

2005-04-10T23:12:00.000-07:00

and thus begins the marathon: started today at 12. plans are to spend from now until 5am working on my history paper. it is on marxism and religion. 12 pages. right now, i have a title page, two pages and a pile of books to my front. i have nested myself in the celts conference room to avoid any type of distraction like other people working and public safety. i have a nice little check off list on the dry erase board. all that remains are 10 pages and a bibliography. thank goodness this isn't due until friday.

so, it has been pretty awesome since my last post. i think they have already found the replacement for people who care, and he is a good one. i am so stoked about my new job too. i have training for that at the end of the month. my three tests last week were okay. the social strat test went well, anthropology was okay as well as statistics.

bonner preview was this weekend too. i got to observe for a little bit, but the ones that i did observe were awesome. i think this upcoming class will be a good one.

i also had the most awesome people who care outing yesterday too. 16 of us went to the goatwalker coffee house in louisville. we had a blast hanging out with some cool people. on the way home, we got lost in louisville and came to some deadend place with shaky people all around. so, after we found the interstate and some fancy manuvering on my part in a 10 passenger van, we found a waffle house. after we got back around 2am, jose, jeremy and i went to arbys...walking. i got to bed around 4:30. it was a good day.

so, i am sitting here avoiding my paper. i so do not feel like writing it.

25 five hours until bedtime...let the games begin

in the car the radio leaves me searching for your star

2005-04-05T11:29:00.000-07:00

so, today has been awesome. it is only 11:30 and i am excited. anthropology went extremely well. we had a very good discussion on social stratification. i tore it up like no other.

i came back to my room to hang out until work. played some videogames and a lot of guitar. plus...i checked my email. I GOT THE JOB!!! i am the new CELTS Student Service Chaplain! I am so stoked. this is gonna be an awesome job and a unique opportunity. the interview went very well yesterday.

so people who care now has an opening. i guess we shall be taking in some applications for that soon!

ps-looking at apartments tonight

to everybody who believes in something...let them laugh

2005-04-03T20:27:00.000-07:00

so that is from an awesome song from the supertones. a great ska band. so, the first week back from spring break took some adjustment. just when i get used to sleeping in everyday, i go back to 7:20 wake-up calls. the western civ test went okay and i am feeling pretty good about it. well, not an A+ quality, but at least a low B...i really do not care.

on wednesday, i was sitting at work just getting things in order for the next pwc outing when one of the office people asks to speak to me. i figure it would be something over the micah 6 car...as it usually is. she comes to my desk and asks if i had a few minutes. well, it wasn't about the car...not even close. she tells me that the CELTS service chaplain position would be open the next year. they had a meeting about who would be interested. so she asked if i would be interested. so, a day later, and several conversations with two of my bosses, and the current chaplain, and a email to campus ministries, i have an interview, or something on monday. i am really excited about it becuase it is unique and somewhat like pwc, but i would be co-employed with campus ministries which is cool. details on that later

as for the rest of the week, i missed three classes. i skipped anthropology cause the reading was all super hardcore womanism and how the white man is ruining everything. i am all for egalitarianism, but there are some norms that are biological that we all must accept. i missed stats and western civ on friday, well, i just didn't go.

that evening, samantha and i rode up with david to cinncinnatti to pick up sarah g from the airport. it was a blast filled with steak and shake, panera, and countless jokes. i am sure that everyone thought that we were drunk or high at steak and shake. i went to bed around 3 and got up the next day around 8 for the berea buddies service project. that went okay

that evening, i went and played bingo with some old people at the nursing home for two hours. then i took a nap, went to CELTS, watched some movies, and then played some splinter cell.

today has been wasted. i did get a detailed outline for my history paper done and some basic ideas for it. as for tonight, i gotta study for social stratification test and do some statistics. i have three tests next week and two massive papers the following week.

summer is close

40 hour marathon

2005-03-30T07:53:00.000-08:00

the drive back to berea took about 11 and 1/2 hours. this includes three stops for gas and one for subway. it was an okay drive except for the heavy downpours on the pa turnpike and maryland. i had rain pretty much the whole time. i got back around 12 and went to celts to watch a movie with david, sam, and ryan. afterward, i came back to my room. still feeling the rush from my caffeine, i laid awake for awhile after talking to shawn about break and stuff. after he went to bed, i laid awake listening to the birds outside and watching the light in the room slowly brighten.

work was insane. i stayed busy the entire time, plus i did two interviews for day camp which both rocked. i'm getting more excited. jose, david, and i headed to bob evans for dinner.

after dinner came the study marathon. pretty much 7:30pm-2am was spent preparing for a history test that i still feel not ready for. i got a 93 on the last one, so i really do not care much about this one. i went to bed at 2:30 which ends my 40 hour marathon with no sleep.

well, gotta go sit through stats and study!

ps-...no more spring break...no more sleeping in...no more frozen pizzas...

responsibility not quite yet

2005-03-28T12:10:00.000-08:00

okay, i am sitting at my brother's computer just after a nice shower and a long sleep. this is me basically delaying an 11-12 hour drive back to berea. just as long as i am back by 8am, i have no problems.

so spring break turned out to be a nice surprise. i spent the first half at home watching comedy central, hanging out with the freshmen bonners jose, and jo, chillin with some high school buddies and a awesome movie. and a trip to sam's club.

i drove up here on thursday with no plan. i just kinda walked into the living room and told my parents that i was gonna go visit my brother in philadelphia. the drive was not too bad and you all would be proud of me...i dabbled between 75 and 90 mph the whole way!

the friday was spent going to this awesome furniture store called ikea. it's one of a kind...makes me wish i had an apartment. we also hit best buy and then went into the city for some cheesesteaks and cheese fries. i bought the seconf splinter cell for xbox and my brother bought all the megaman games for xbox. that night, we played videogames and watched the exorcist movies.

saturday was a nice trip to nyc. i had never been...and i would never want to drive there. insane traffic...especially when like 12 lanes of traffic are pushed into 1 lane. but the city was awesome. we just walked around and checked out central park, statue of liberty, trump tower, times square...etc. a lot of walking. we drove back and got some hooters wings on the way home.

sunday...easter was good. i went with my brother to one of his friend's house for dinner. we watched some basketball in this awesome house and hung out with some cool people...including a forgetful old man who lives in his own world...he was awesome. dinner was good. i tried shrimp for the first time...no good. but the ham, oh the ham. ham is my middle name. we then watched uk blow it in double overtime. i was kinda amused. this means a lot of people in berea will not be happy. after dinner, we came back, played some videogames and watched some tv.

so now i sit here at 12:10 not wanting to go. i gotta pack. and i gotta find my way out of this city....

...should be interesting...

back in berea around 1 or 2am.

greetings from pa

2005-03-24T23:35:00.000-08:00

so, this morning, i am laying in bed when i hear a knock at my window. it was jose and jo!!! they had stopped by on their way home. after they left, i started thinking about heading out myself. a phone call, a few visits, and a seven hour trip later, i am in philadelphia at my brother's apartment.

i'll stick around here a few days and i might head back home for a day, or just drive on back to berea...we'll see

oh yeah!

2005-03-24T10:13:00.000-08:00

midterm grades came out yesterday. three A's and A- and a B+! Heck yeah!

now watch me mess it up in the second half :)

so i didn't know there were two parking garages

2005-03-22T11:31:00.000-08:00

the drive home was awesome. i went through hazard and then virginia and up through bluefield. i didn't hit interstate until the last 10 minutes of the ride. i'm gonna drive back that way. i also ran into to shawn twice, he went a different way, but we both ended up in richlands. the break so far has been good. i hung out with some high school friends on saturday and we went to see the movie hostage. it was really good.

on sunday, i drove up to charleston to hang out with jose and the freshman bonners. we just walked around the mall for a really long time. I bought the "i can make a mess like nobody's business" cd. it so awesome. it's great acoustic, emo, some strings, keyboard, electric guyitar stuff. just go get it. at the end, we went to bennigans where jose told the waiter that it was heather's birthday (when it wasn't), that was funny. so, on the way out, i decided to come to a concert with them. i was supposed to follow the vans over in my car. i get to the parking garage and i start to head up to where i was parked...no car. i go up one more, no car. i send jose back and tell him to just go on that i was gonna call somebody. so i run up and down the parking garage twice on the verge of tears thinking that my car had been stolen. i get a call from jose asking me if i had found it. in the background, i hear heather asking if i had parked it in the other garage. other garage? the mall has two garages? yep...so i go over, and found my car right where i had parked it. i gave it a big hug and then drove home.

on monday, my parents and i drove over to cook for the freshman class. that was neat, except for my dad criticizing my driving and making stupid remarks. i shook it off. so today, i got nothing except for a visit to the garage and a trip to wash a car.

i gotta start my homework soon

St. Patrick's Day!

2005-03-17T10:21:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's about time to get a little Irish stuff going...anyway, I am sitting in my hall lobby locked out of my room. I left my keys in the room this morning and shawn is at work. I'm just killing time until he gets back. Class this morning was so boring. We went on and on about marriage and stuff...for two hours. The point was driven into the ground during the last class, this was just beating a dead dog. I'll be on the road home tomorrow! I am pretty excited about that. I have to work on a few papers at home, but it will be nice to be able to stay in bed and not have to do anything. I'm gonna go hang out with Jose on Sunday in Charleston and then on Monday, I am heading back up to take spaghetti to the Bonners. The rest of the time will be spent doing nothing constructive. I gotta go pack after work and then I have to get rid of my alcohol...I wonder how I'll do that?

The week has been good, the stress management midterm was overrated. I hate that class. On mine and Jose's trip to Arby's aand back, I accidentally stepped on a dead cat...it was nasty and I screamed like a little girl. That was the highlight of the trip. Besides the Arby's goodness.

I gotta find a place to live this summer.

Happy St. Patrick's Day everybody! Do something fun and make sure you wear some green. Remember: Today has a five drink minimum...

2005-03-15T23:43:00.000-08:00

midterm in stress management...what the heck!?!

screw it, i'm going to arbys

i know that everything, know that everything...

2005-03-15T00:00:00.000-08:00

what a day. i missed statistics again. we are allowed to have 5 personal days, so i am not too waorried. i did the homework that he assigned today: box plots! yay! anyway, i had to leave my social strat class because of my weak stomach. we'll leave it at that ( i am squirming now). had a ccc meeting...pointless.

oh man, i found bass tabs for the whole blink album and take your pants and jacket. it is all on one file, so can just scroll rather than deal with back buttons. i spent last night playing the new album on bass...i did the whole thing...i'm a dork.

spring break is almost here and i am excited. i get to go hang out a little with the bonners and stuff. i plan on sleeping a lot.

okay, gotta go to bed, class tomorrow at 8 (2hours long).

i need to fold my laundry

today starts a new life

2005-03-14T09:46:00.000-08:00

well, after fourteen days in the same pair of pants, i had to retire them. they were hopelessly defeated by a melted cadburry egg. but the fight was strong and the pants held out two more days.

...anyway, i did laundry last night...i am wearing clean clothes now

digital ash

2005-03-12T21:22:00.000-08:00

so i am sitting in my room, it is 9pm and i just woke up. i woke up ealier with this horrible migraine and the feeling that i could puke at any moment. today has been spent in and out of bed doing nothing but watching a few movies and napping. i canceled people who care because of it. i am feeling a little better now, but i now pretty hungry, i haven't eaten since yesterday evening. shawn took off to lexington to get some stuff for his brother, i was supposed to go, but i sat up and almost passed out.

yesterday was pretty cool. i skipped my statistics class to celebrate my good test grade in there, though now i have made a deal with myself that involves no more skips. sam, david, jose, moe, jo, and company and i all went to panera bread last night. that was the best ham and cheese sandwich i have ever had. and the soup was awesome. after eating, moe and jo took off while the rest of us went to old navy and target. i bought a bright eyes cd. it is pretty cool and unlike anything i have every heard. after shopping, we went to the theater to see "hitch." before going in to the movie, david and i dazzled the workd with our d.d.r. skills. it just further confirmed my whiteness and inablity to have rhythm. the movie was pretty good. sam, david, and jose all agree that the white guy in the movie was me...i must say, probably. they are just jealous that i have some sweet moves.

the ride home made a stop at krispy creme. it was snowing pretty hard, but we made it back around 1am.

so i am thinking that i might head to mcdonalds to see if i can stomach a few cheeseburgers.

we'll see

day twelve in the pants

2005-03-11T12:14:00.000-08:00

last night, i was laying in bed trying to fall asleep. at 12:30, i realized that the two mountain dews might be a catalyst to this. all along, i had this cool lyric in my head with an awesome riff in mind. I laid awake thinking about it. so, i got up and wrote it down, 15 minutes later i had a full song. i really like it. the title is "dawn." people at home might get the title, but probably not. it's to a certain girl that i dated a while back. haha, anyway, i might post the lyrics, i dunno, i'm gonna try to put it to some music this weekend. i really wanna record it. i wish i had some program for that. help me out steve!

anyway, i decided to start carrying around a notebook for lyrics now. who knows, somewhere down the line, i might find some musicians...or go solo..haha, wouldn't that be funny (doubtful since i suck at guitar).

today is day twelve in the pants! i must say that they smell quite fresh! heck yeah for old spice spray!

one week until spring break! man, i am stoked about that. i'm just looking forward to not having classes or volunteer stuff for a week. i get to go cook spaghetti for the freshman bonner class on that monday while they are on their service trip to big ugly west virginia. who knows what i'll do with the rest of the time.

so, now, i gotta go drive some old ladies home...fun

tenth day in the pants

2005-03-09T13:35:00.000-08:00

I just want to announce that I have been wearing the same pair of pants for the past 10 days and I do not plan on doing laundry until spring break...you do the math

your cover's blown

2005-03-08T19:24:00.000-08:00

these past two days have been, somewhat...normal i guess. what else is new. i managed to skip western civ before the teacher got there...meaning that i decided to go to class and then changed my mind after leaving. i took off, went to lunch, and took a nap. i had a meeting with my boss today, as usual and we mostly talked about the movie saved. that is such a good movie. anyway, class was good and then the rest of work went well. we stayed pretty busy at tutoring working on a project and berea buddies was its usual self. after everything, i came back to the room and chilled until house council. after the meeting, i decided to go to bed cause i was wiped out. well, ten minutes into my sleep, the fire alarm goes off. meaning that i had to get up, through on a hoodie and go stand outside of the door. the only problem was that it was windy, cold, and raining. so, standing about 3 feet away from a supposedly burning building i watch the fire truck pull up (10 minutes after the alarm). out jumps this fat man with no gear on. he strolls up to this burning building, we let him in. meanwhile, the firetruck sits idly. another ten pass and public safety decides to make an appearance. we let them in and stand waiting. so, about ten more, we finally go back in. i am soaked and totally freezing. know what though? the alarm is still going off. apparently some water got into the system and messed it up. so, it should turn off in half an hour. wtf? fifteen minutes back inside and i hear duct tape and the alarm a little bit muffled. wow, i love how relient fire alarms can be.

after a restless sleep, i wake up at 7, reset the alarm to 7:45 and then decided to skip anthropology and reset for 11. i slept sooooo good. got up, went to walmart to buy a toothbrush and bread. i came to work and got everything done early. i then went to lunch with jose at the mexican hardees where we discussed the follies of a fundamentalist point of view. tutoring went well, and i am now waiting on sam to get here so i can go to the library. we have to make bibliographies for western civ 2. i also gotta make one with an outline for my social strat paper. i get to examine social and educational stratification of beckley: private schools versus public. if any gbcs alum read this, i could use some interviews!

okay, i gotta pee again

lets get drunk, you can drive us to the harbor

2005-03-06T23:09:00.000-08:00

this weekend was so chill. i slept a lot. on friday, i took my statistics test and went to all my other classes. that night was cool too. i made over 12 dozen eggs! we had the first book fundraiser and i was in charge of eggs. it was a green eggs and ham dinner in honor of dr. suess. i got to make green eggs. i loved it. after it, i came in, watched some simpsons and fell asleep. when i woke up the next day at 11, i was excited that i got over twelve hours of sleep.

pwc was good. there were 13 of us at a children's hospital. i had a good time building a house out of lincoln logs. that night, i played a little video games and then went to blockbuster with sam and jose to get some movies and pizza. we rented "the people under the stairs," "sleepy hollow," and "urban legends." it was really fun and stuff. i got back to my room and called samantha. we stayed on the phone until like 5am talking about everything.

today, i tried to start on a paper, but i ended up watching movies or procrastinating.

now it is time for bed. two weeks until freedom....until spring break!

goodbye. lay the blame on luck

2005-03-03T22:34:00.000-08:00

i am sitting here in celts with sam avoiding studying. i hate statistics. i feel pretty confident about the test...just a lot of terms and shit. we are laughing at some funny pictures of me "skiing". one makes me look like an old man taking a shit. they make me giggle. we are also listening to some old eveningside songs too. they bring back memories and stuff.

i went out and bought the something corporate dvd. that is such an awesome performance and great music. definitely worth the 15 dollars. they have so much energy and manage to sound good at the same time. definitely rare in a lot of bands.

i am also ready for this week to be over. pwc is gonna be awesome and i just looking forward to no tests for awhile. i had three this week. this weekend is also sure to bring some fun... details later.... plus, some people have been really stupid this week. a lot of people like to have pity parties and still believe that we are in high school and that everyone should have only one clique of friends to hang out with.

anyway...i just found some stuff that recorded on guitar and bass last year. steve, speaking of which, if you still have that guitar riff you recorded, you should send it so i can put some piano or something on it. we should make another ep.

okay, back to homework

i gotta pee

attempt to procrastinate

2005-03-02T12:21:00.000-08:00

i have been studying for western civ all night and i need a friggin break. this class is so stupid. my essays are ready to go, but the map and short answer are gonna kill me. why does it matter that i know who ruled when, where and what they did? anyway, i am blogging to delay further studying. i have plan for this: i have decided not to go to bed until 2am, get up at 7, take a stacker, go to class and ace this mother...well, attempt to ace it.

so anyway, i rocked my anthropology test with a solid 94 percent. i was excited...so excited that i took a nap! an what did dream about during my nap? western civ. but it was still a good nap. i took an old lady to walmart (and this is how much of a fat ass i am): during the trip, i saw walmart chicken and i had slept through lunch. so, after i took her home, i drove back and bought some honey barbeque goodness. work was good, i am gonna have a ton of people show up to pwc this saturday.

for tutoring, i took my kid to play basketball and raquetball...way to be on top of the school work! he got out of school today.

okay, so i gotta get back to this studying...long night

take back

2005-02-27T13:30:00.000-08:00

so this weekend was pretty cool. on friday, i went to lexington with jo, jose, jesi, amanda, ryan, and sam. we went to this new asian food place and then to meijers. i bought the 5th season of the simpsons on dvd. my roommate went home, so i had the place to myself. after lexington, we came back and watched halloween in celts. the pwc outing on saturday was pretty cool. it was a little shakey however. we took snack to the patients and one got too rowdy and they had to get him out of there. needless to say, we were rushed out of the room and down the hall while the intercom came on about the status of our unit. that was kinda scary, but after all that, we had a great time. after pwc, we went over to a professor's house that ryan was dog-sitting at and watched saw. god, that movie is so funny the second time around. i came back to the room to lay down after that. i had this horrible migraine. sam called me aroun 11:30 asking me to go clubbing with everybody. that was fun. we stayed at the club until 4:30 and got back to berea around 5. i just got up.

i have to go to the richmond mall to observe people for my anthropology class. i don't know how that will go, but it should be good. i also need to study for a test...i forgot about that.

attention, attention may i have all of your eyes and ears to the front of the room

2005-02-25T19:45:00.000-08:00

today was rad! my academy is cd came in today. after two weeks of waiting, i got it along with a sampler. i must say...this cd rocks like crazy. i love it. every song has that perfect blend of emo and rock. go buy it.

okay, i'm done

please stay until i'm gone, i'm here hold on

2005-02-24T14:11:00.000-08:00

this has been a pretty crazy week. monday was insane. i went to class, then to a ccc meeting, then a meeting with my boss, work, class, more work, tutoring, then berea buddies, and finally a first book meeting. i was ready to crash come 9. tuesday was a little more relaxed. yesterday, i went to richmond to buy the atticus 3 compilation. i like it. it was kinda depressing knowign that this will probably be the last time i will ever get to buy new music from blink 182. but their song on there is kickin'. i stayed up really late to study for an anthropology test that i had today. i feel pretty good about it. i know i rocked the multiple choice section and the first essay, but the second one was not the best. i know i didn't flunk it! i have to go to convo today. we are gonna learn about astroids and stars. i am excited becuse for once, i get to go to convo and not leave feeling guilty for being white. i know that is not their objective, but sometimes i feel a little under-represented here. every group of people has been subject to some sort of discrimination. granted, what the whites did to the blacks was not cool, but that was a long time ago and it is in the past. anyway, i am excited about this convo.

i took some cold medicine today and i am feeling sort of stoned. it is the daytime stuff and like arms feel like dead weight. work is going by sooooo slowly. i have nothing to do.

okay, gonna do some homework

everything has fallen to pieces

2005-02-23T09:47:00.000-08:00

there are too few times when a band comes along and drops an album that is pure genius and talent. it is even less the times that this band does it 5 times. blink 182 has, and always will remain the single most successful punk rock band. they brought the movement into full effect while picking up the slack of other rising bands. these guys, along with mxpx, made me want to be in a punk rock band. i remember staying up late with steve playing covers of these guys. i think we played everything from take off your pants and jacket. and the show...oh the show. most bands have no presence on the stage, these guys made playing shows an artform. everytime i got to a show, it is impossible for me not to compare them to blink 182's show. the release of the self-titled album further solidified who they were. great musicians, great people. and what happened, bands followed. blink 182 ushered in the pop-punk movement and forged the paths for bands like the starting line and fall out boy. but there will never be another blink 182. maybe they will come back, but for now, we are left with the albums they created and the memories of their shows.

...to the greatest band in music history

MWAHAHAHAHA

2005-02-21T16:18:00.000-08:00

this is Patrick's blog but this isn't Patrick!! ahahahahahaha hohohohoho hehehehehe guess who it is!!!

konstantine is coming down the stairs

2005-02-21T09:38:00.000-08:00

so this weekend was awesome! a very needed break. after amanda was the coolest person and took over pwc for saturday, i went to class, did some breathing techniques and then hit the road. i missed shawn's play, that sucks, but he has a new one in a month or so. i got home around 7 and just crashed. mom and i started talking about the summer job and i just started crying. so much went into it and i came out with a completely different plan. i will be here in berea as director for sfa daycamp. i got the other camp job, but i had to look at where the need was the most. but, after talking with mom and two xanax's later (from my mom)...i felt better. i just sometimes feel like i let down people.

saturday ruled! i got up early and headed to snowshoe. everything was open! i was nervous, but i did pretty good. i hit some sweet jumps and got like 3 feet of air! hahaha. but i didn't fall down. i also did my first double black diamond. man, i went so fast on the lat prt of it that if i fell, i probably would have been paralyzed. we ended early to get back to beckley for jessica's b-day party and steve had to ice his damaged knee.

that night was awesome too. i just chilled with steve, lando, ashley, and stephanie...talk about being the fifth wheel! but it was cool because they don't make me feel that way. thanks guys! we went to walmart, fazolis, and blockbuster. we also just hung out at stephanie's house and watched funny videos and videogames. i loved it.

sunday, i slept in until 12:30, got up, did some visiting, ate some waffles and hit the road. home was good and i feel refreshed from it.

off to class

in honor of valentines day...

2005-02-16T01:19:00.000-08:00

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know Like how to deal with despair or someone breakin your heart For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is beggin to pull me apart I played it quiet left you deep in conversation I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would And now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could Everyone's caught on to everything you do Everyone's caught on to... As if it happening wasn't enough I got to go and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked Ignore the sun, covers over my head Wrote a message on my pillow that says "Jesse, stay asleep in bed" Don't apologize (I hope you choke and die!) Search your cell for something which to hang yourself They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven But they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to Hell! Everyone's caught on to everything you do Everyone's caught on to... (and I can't let you let me down again) Everyone's caught on to everything you do (and I can't let you let me down again) Everyone's caught on to... So is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids Have another drink and drive yourself home I hope there's ice on all the roads And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windshield Is that what you call tact? You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back So let's end this call and end this conversation And is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you say "best friends" means friends forever Is that what you call a getaway?!! Tell me what you got away with!! Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish!! I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids!! Have another drink and drive yourself home!! I hope there's ice on all the roads!! And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt then when your head goes through the windshield!! (I can't let you let me down again) Everyone's caught on to everything you do (and I can't let you let me down again) Everyone's caught on to... (I can't let you let me down again) Everyone's caught on to everything you do (and I can't let you let me down again) Everyone's caught on to...

"Seventy times seven"
-Brand New

This really doens't mean anything, just one of my favorite songs from my favorite band Brand New.

resolution

2005-02-15T19:22:00.000-08:00

so, today was sooo awesome. i went to class and we are gonna get to do some real observations of people for a final project. i know that might not sound too exciting, but as a sociology major...it rules!

what was even better was my interview for camp! oh man, it went so well and i am feeling more confident. it led me to forget about epg. it is too business oriented and i believe that i would have more fun at the camp. so now all i have to do is wait for a phone to let me know if i made it or not. so hopefully i will be off to ohio for the summer! i also got to do some recruiting for sfa daycamp and they offered me the director position there. i would take it, but being a bonner kinda screws up the pay and it makes surviving with rent harsh. but i offered to help with training. but if the other camp does not work out, then i'll take it.

so, with all this behind me, i am feeling confident about my choice. i am still gonna go to a info session for epg, just out of curiosity.

i also wanna apologize for my emotastic blog yesterday. that was just me being to friggin confused and after i published, i realized just how crazy all of this is.

now it is time homework. i have to start working on my final paper for...ALL of my classes. it's only been two weeks and we are aready doing final papers! i have to have a topic for western civ tomorrow. i am gonna do something on karl marx and socialism. since i am becoming more liberal and starting to believe that socialism works better. okay, well it is off to the library.

man, i am soo relieved

torn

2005-02-14T21:17:00.000-08:00

last night was so much fun. after constant study at celts, we decided to head to white castle. i have never had so much fun in a fast food restaurant. it was just one of those times when everyone was slap happy and loving it.

so, on to the issue at hand. finding summer jobs can be a stressful process. but wait...i have found 2. so now i am torn. i was so into going to the first one, and i still am. i mean the camp is just so awesome and i think that i would benefit a lot from it....but....on friday i got an email from my adviser/professor nominating me for a two summer program. the first summer would be spent training while the second would be spent somewhere in appalachia working for a non-profit organization. something new and something that can also be good for me. this can prepare me for what i wanna do with the rest of my life...so where do i go? i find myself pondering on disappointing some friends, or disappointing my adviser. i mean, most of the service i have done has been direct service which is a good thing and something that we should have more of. but i have never have had any experience in working in indirect service. my boss seems to be leaning towrds the internship. but what about camp? what about the kids? i have my interview tomorrow for camp and i honestly do not know what i am gonna say. i mean, i want the job and i think that i would love it. and what if i was to pass up camp and not get the into the other program? that has been on my mind a lot....i have a feeling it is gonna be a long night. i have vested so much interest in this camp..would it be ethical of me to walk away when i hold doubts?

life makes no sense sometimes

i guess it is time to grow up.

i might be a fool, you could be one too

2005-02-12T16:32:00.000-08:00

today was a cool day. i had people who care at a nursing home. i spent about 2 hours playing bingo with some really cool old people. it was awesome. there were only three of us, but it was awesome.

so, i might be staying here for the summer. i got email from my adviser nominating me for a two summer internship here. it sound pretty cool. this summer i would be taking classes about entrenprenuership and leadership. plus i would have all of august off. the second summer would be spent working at a non-profit organization somewhere in appalachia. it sounds like a pretty cool plan and it is experience for my future, i might do it. i have to get in first...

the plain white t's cd came in today. man, it is so awesome. it's good old pop-punk rock n'roll. i love it. this band is so good in concert. i am also excited because the academy is cd should be in mail box on monday. i might be going to see them with fall out boy, silverstein and gym class heros in cinncinnati. that's a long way off though.

my chocolate milk exploded all over me at the cafe...that was fun

okay, dinner time and stuff.....

man this cd is soooooooooooo good. everyone go buy it: Plain white t's: all that we needed

2005-02-11T00:56:00.000-08:00

Yay!

I'm also the master chief from halo 2!

softly

2005-02-09T22:48:00.000-08:00

it's a no go. a bad match. no drive tonight...but there will be soon. he's at the top of the list

i'm going to bed

my life reads like the classified

2005-02-09T22:41:00.000-08:00

i am sitting here, staring at the phone...waiting for a call that will initiate a 8 hour drive to durham, north carolina
let me explain how i got here:

this morning at 6:30, i got a call from my brother. something odd was up when i saw his name on the i.d. dad was getting a transplant...or the possibility of one was the news. it hit me...wow. three years of hospitals, ambulances, and near death experiences were all boiling down to one day. i laid back down to soak in the news...then mom called. her news was the same.

classes moved like slow motion. a few more tests had to be completed to make sure that the transplant was a possibility. i got a call at lunch time to let me know they were on the way. somewhere between work and class, i decided to head to durham if this was to go down. as of 8pm, results from the tests were still pending. two and a half hours later, i am a nervouse wreck. i have now decided to leave right away. i was gonna wait until class was over tomorrow, but i would rather go tonight and dodge traffic...plus i drive better at night.

the phone still hasn't rang. i wonder if i should call again. probably shouldn't. hospitals take long to do these things. it's looking up and i am wondering if i should hit the road now. i could be there by 7am if i left by 11. hmmmm...this is killing me. no way i will get any sleep tonight. plus i have been listening to the academy is on purevolume. i love it. it is so good. i had a micah 6 meeting today and i got a few more volunteers. i am pretty excited about that.

where are they?

it is times like these that i need xanax or something. think i'll mosey on down to the corner and buy some...joking. berea doesn't have a corner and i do not have the money. plus coffee would better suit the situation...or not. man, i am just so on edge right now. it's a mixture of excitement and impatience.

think i'm gonna go play bass now and try to chill.

tell us a story, i know you're not boring

2005-02-08T14:08:00.000-08:00

so, i am sitting at work, bored out of my mind. i got all of my stuff done and i have three more hours to go....i might duck out early. anyway, amanda burned the strokes cd for me. it is so awesome. i love the reptilia song. it's worth checking out. i ordered the plain white t's on sunday, but they keep on pushing back the shipping date...i guess it'll get here whenever. i got paid for short term yesterday, i was excited

to celebrate, jose, david, amanda, samantha, and i went to china chef. there, we proceeded to stuff ourslelves until...well, until we're gorging full. at that time, samantha talks about how she wants to get a messenger bag (probably cause of my kickass one i got) and then amanda too. so i was like "lets go to lexington!" we went. it was fun. we went to like five stores in search of a cool bag...we finally found one at walmart. i tried to find the other sister...didn't happen. on the way back, we talked about grad schools. man, that is so close..i hate thinking about it. but, i guess i have to. time to grow up *shudder*

back to work

i need some caffeine, think i'll make some coffee

hitting the wrong button

2005-02-06T16:56:00.000-08:00

okay, so i just hit ctrl s and it published while i was halfway through. anyway, go see that movie. it is worth it.

classes are good...it's gonna be hard...lotsa reading. statistics is gonna be easy. anthropology is gonna have a lot of reading, as well as social stratification and western civ. stress management is gonna be an easy A..i better get an A in there dammit.

okay, so it is off to dinner

pat goes to white castle...twice

2005-02-06T13:44:00.000-08:00

yeah, it's true. i went to white castle twice in one day...but it was so worth it. that stuff is just so good and i cannot get enough of it. let me explain:

yesterday, i woke up around 11:oo. i got up, took a shower, watched some tv and hung out. shawn decided that he needed to go to lexington to get some pants. i wanted to go buy the strokes cd. so i went along. we got to old navy, shawn got his pants, i bought a new bag for my school books and found no strokes cd, or plain white t's. so, we decided to go to white castle. man...that was some good food. it was worth the drive. we got back around 8.

we headed over to the office to watch some movies with friends. after watching the village, we decided to go clubbing...but not for three hours. i went to walmart to try to find the cd...still no luck. i headed back to the room and chilled until 1:45. we headed back to lexington and stayed in the club until 4:30. after that...we wanted more white castle. so we went back for some more goodness. god i'm fat.

anyway, i got back to my room about 6am this morning and crashed. i got up around 1pm and came over to the office to do some homework. now, i am getting ready for dinner and will be back here doing some homework.

we went to see hide and seek on friday. man, that was a kickass movie. robert deniro is the man. it was so good and it kept my on the edge of my seat the whole time. the whole movie is one long series of suspense.

get disturbed

2005-02-04T18:32:00.000-08:00

hey, if anyone is up for getting disturbed, go to www.fat-pie.com and watch the cartoons.

not for children

memphis...rock city

2005-02-01T22:15:00.000-08:00

so memphis was like the coolest place i have ever been to. my only compaint was my age...and that will be fixed in seven months. anyway it ruled. our flight out of lexington got delayed cause there was some mechanical malfunction or something. but i got a lot of reading done in "angels and demons." good book. so we get there to this kick ass hotel in downtown. they had me registred as patrick grady. that made me chuckle. but i checked in and unpacked. my roommate was cool. he was from davidson college and was hoping to go to seminary. he was a rad guy.

after unpacking, i went back down to the lobby to meet betty and patty for dinner. we decided to eat at tgi fridays. it was okay, but the coolest part was when we were waiting for the table, ja rule came walking out! i was so stoked. he walked by where i was setting and was yelling at some girls in the lobby. it just made me laugh cause i am not a big rap fan, but it was still cool to see that dude.

so the next day was the conference day. the morning was spent at rhodes college learning about centering prayer. a really cool technique of silent prayer with one word. it ws relxing. where else can you sit with your eyes closed for forty minutes. i loved it. lunch was good. i got to meet some people from emory and henry college ferrum and then we went back to the sessions and had a meeting on prophetic dreaming.

we then took off to the civil rights museum to where martin king was shot. it was kinda eerie standing in the same place the shooter stood and then being in the same building where dr. king died. it was really cool stuff.

that night, we all headed to the blues city cafe for some kickin ribs. it was so good and it was all on the bonner foundation. after listening to some good music and filling myself up, a few of us walked down to see the mississippi river. that something coporate song "i woke up in a car" was in my head the whole time. we then headed back up the big mall and picked around the cd store.

my roommate decided to head back, but i was not ready to turn in. me and this guy from emory and henry walked all around beale street (a massive strip of clubs and music). we talked to a homeless guy for awhile and then decided to head to a club to see a band. we found a free one with no age limit and stayed there for awhile. the music was so good. the band rocked it hard. some good ol' blues. i loved it. i spent most of the time watching the guitarist tear it up like crazy with solos and stuff. after that, we walked around some more and stumbled into a fancy lounge area. we were a bit underdressed, so took off. i went to bed after i had satisfied my need to hear some good blues.

the next morning was like a wrap up session for micah 6. we had reflection and then took off to churches. me and my roommate conor found a good church and stuck around until we had to head for the airport. before the flight, i had some great spaghetti and discussed new ways to make micah 6 better...since that's what the conference was all about. we got some good ideas.

after the flight home, i headed back to berea and went straight to student parking. i prepared myself for the four hour drive and took off. it was a super emotastic trip...musicwise. i listened to straylight run, taking back sunday: "tell all your friends," and "where you want to be," keane, brand new: deja entendu, something corporate, and greenday's broken dreams song. there was some others, but it was a good trip. i had a massive migraine though. i got in about 10:30 and hung out until i fell asleep.

short term break was good. i got some new chucks. hightops that are grey with yellow lining and a black front. heading back tomorrow.

spring term starts thursday...countdown to suicide....

not really

my micah 6 shirt is still the coolest!

when i catch fire

2005-01-27T02:00:00.000-08:00

so, here i am at 1:30 in the morning and i can't sleep. i have a test in eight and a half hours and really do not care. perhaps it was the three hour nap i got today, or my mind...but i cannot fall asleep. so, my mind wanders and i think back to why i can't keep a relationship going. random...i know. for the most part, my blog has been light-hearted and non-emotastic, but i guess i'm just hoping that i'll fall asleep by blabbing on and on; pouring my heart out onto this keyboard.

i came to the realization of how i can almost kill a relationship from when i say: "i love you," to when it dies. me saying those words seem to mark the end. every girlfriend i have been with has been killed by those words combined with other factors. i was so in love with felicia during high school and we had a great time together. but what happened? yeah, i know that distance did not help, but i can't tell myself that when my best friend from high school and his girlfriend are making it...despite the 12 hour 800 mile space between them.

from there, i played with the thought of how it happened in other girls i dated in high school. here's the process:
1. curiousity- i notice her and she notices me, but does she like me?
2. get her attention- coffeehouse open mics always did it for me. invite her along and dedicate a love song to an anymous person...works everytime.
3. make the move- go out as friends and go home as something more.
4. keep things fun- have fun all the time, do silly things and make sure that where-ever you are, she's there.
5. the first kiss- always awkward but always great. something to laugh about when you date a little longer.
6. i love you- let the feeling grow and begin to realize that you could spend the rest of your life with her. does she love you back??
7. artifacts- give her stuff that means something...like a class ring.
8. the first argument- stand your ground, but don't be afraid to compromise
9. awkwad silences- 15 minute pauses in conversation...stalling.
10. battle continues- arguments become more intense and less resolved.
11. come clean- the break up. lets be friends or i hate you. either one means that i am done.

this is how it goes and it has showed a 100 percent return everytime. so, this leads me to think about how i am happier alone. i'd rather have close friends than significant others. every relationship i have dies because of my boredom and fear of commitment.

this brings me to the solution: patrick mcgrady is one of those people who is a great friend...but that is all he can offer. maybe this isn't true and maybe i am reading way into thing, but this is what happens when you drink coffee all day and take a nap. i like being alone. i never see myslef getting married or settling down with someone. i see myself as a person who has tight connections with his friends and the mentality of not wanting to screw things up with this complex. wait, not complex: personality.

yep, i'm an orange and i have a short attention span and i am very messy, somewhat creative. but that is me and i like it.

okay, so sorry about all this, but hey, coffee does that to you. don't know where this came from. haha, but it did work. i am sleepy now. thank you blogger for helping me with my insomnia.

my new micah 6 t-shirt is the shit! in fact...it's BANANAS B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

....

2005-01-26T17:55:00.000-08:00

people take things way too seriously sometimes. hahaha

don't feel like typing...gotta study for a test...

this will make no sense to anyone but myself...

didn't drink last night...postponed till tonight...pants will STAY ON!!! hahaha

i got a micah 6 shirt!

good to go

2005-01-25T18:27:00.000-08:00

three more days of class and then short term is over. then memphis. that's gonna rule. i get to go run around downtown memphis and stuff. after memphis, i fly to lexington around 5pm and head back to berea to get my car and go home. man, i am so ready to go home and sleep. i put in over 100hours this month. i know that is not a lot in the real world but along with class, homework and extra stuff...it goes crazy. but it was so much fun. i stayed so busy with work today. i got so much done though and i am really excited about the new stuff and yeah and things like that.

last night was cool. we hung out in celts doing homework while i printed out my class schedule and colored it six different times. jose showed me some pictures from a camp that i might work at this summer. it looked so cool. oh, i skipped class yesterday too. i got up, took a shower and was like: "screw it" and went back to bed. i got up around 11:30 and took my car to walmart to get my oil changed. i bought a bag of chicken and took it to work with me and shared the chickeny-goodnees.

today was normal. class, work and dinner, and back to the office. we are showing another documentary tonight. i think that i might just chill in the office and do homework and reaggrange my desk. maybe i'll color some more stuff.

after the movie, there is a 75 percent chance of pat getting drunk followed by a 100 percent chance of puking and a hangover.

if all goes to plan...

long day, good times

2005-01-23T14:23:00.000-08:00

yesterday was pretty cool...or long. i got up at 7 to take kristi home to corbin. her, shawn and i went and we had a pretty good time. we stopped at walmart to get some breakfast stuff and made some sweet breakfast stuff. i was full. we then chilled on her couch and watched tv until 11:30. i had to leave because i had to get back in time for people who care. on the drive back, my passenger side mirror fell off. for no reason. right now, it is sitting in student parking with the mirror hanging from a wire. i have some blue duct tape to fix it up. it's gonna be sweet and ghetto. well, only temporary until i find a better solution.

the people who care trip was awesome. i had to get a second van from motorpool to accomodate all of the volunteers. 16 people showed up! i was super excited. after we drove around the hospital forever looking for parking, we got to go in and play with some kids. it was a good time.

we had to leave early because of the weather. the snow was coming down pretty fast. it took me half an hour just to get to the interstate. we got back aroun 5:30. i went to get some dinner and then i grabbed a quick nap. around eight, shawn, sam, and amanda wanted to go to starbucks...so back to lexington. we went there and after some talking about watching harold and kumar go to white castle...we wanted white castle. so, we drove around, listening to dirty rap songs about sex, looking for white castle. we passed the hospital i was at ealier today. we had an address and was on the way, but all the sudden we were back on the interstate...oh well. so much for white castle. i came back and crashed. it was a crazy day. down to corbin, back to berea, then to lexington, back to berea and then to lexington again with a long quiet trip back to berea.

today...nothing but laundry and chillin. it's gonna be a great day.

making kids smile everywhere

2005-01-21T23:19:00.000-08:00

so this week has been pretty rad. despite the mediocre performance at the coffee house, it was pretty good. we had an awesome book in class to read, i got a 100 on my second test, totally rocked my third test, watched some good documentaries, and had some good discussions.

tomorrow, i am headed to corbin in the morning to take friend home and then on to lexington to a children's hospital for people who care. it's gonna be awesome, we are gonna take crafts and stuff to play with the children.

i got to share the joy of moose moose to all of the freshmen in the bonner class. we had so much fun playing it.

so i beat halo 2...disapointment...it wasn;t even that long... i'm pissed

but still a good week. one more to go until short term break and micah 6 conference.

coffee houses...no good

2005-01-19T11:24:00.000-08:00

yeah, so last night, i went to play at a coffee house for the tsunami relief program. i played "you can call me al," "play crack the sky," and "existentialism on prom night." i was so nervous, and it showed. i did okay, but i should have done better. unplugged guitar with amplified voice in a big room is a scary thing. oh well, it was a good night anyway and i had fun doing it...i just need to practice more.

my roommate is off to the inaguaration (i think). that's gotta be awesome. one hell of a drive though. up there today, and leaving right after the ceremonies. they are driving through beckley to get there.

okay, well, it's off to work. games day...should be fun. oh, one of my five hours quit. she had to start teaching in harlan county (3 hours away). so i get to do interviews and stuff. that should be fun. i'm gonna go create the application today after freshman training and before the movie.

okay...gotta go

wasting words on lower cases and capitals

2005-01-17T18:47:00.000-08:00

i really love these days in which there are no classes. mlk day has some redeeming qualities to it. i slept in till 10:45 and then went to lunch at 12. i spent the day at the office getting in some extra hours and getting a lot done. i got my application for hiram house done. i hope they hire me. it really looks like a fun camp that will test a lot of me, but i am up for it.

i bought harold and kumar go to white castle yesterday. it's a fun movie for a good time.

on saturday, jose, david, sarah, samantha, jo and i watched napoleon dynamite and saved in my room. shawn had to go home at the last minute. after the movies, someone mentioned that a krispee kreme donut would hit the spot. so, at midnight, we took off to lexington for krispee kreme and waffle house. we got back here around 3. i stayed up till 5 playing some video games (i'm a nerd). but it was a good night.

sunday was relaxing. i cleaned the room and then went to richmond to the book store to chill.

stuck on this new good charlotte cd

i love three day weekends, but now i have to go back into things. nine more days of class and then it is off to memphis...

i am going to memphis tn at the end of the month for a micah 6 convention. it's for my job. they are wanting to get all of the micah 6 coordinators together to discuss the program and find ways to focus more on the service. i'm excited. i fly out that friday at 5 and i will fly back into lexington 5 on sunday and then i come back to berea, head to student parking and then head for west virginia. that's gonna be a long day, but i love to drive, so it's not gonna be too bad.

okay, it's off to walmart, and then on to homework. book number 3 for the month. this one is gonna be good. it's about how children are the most targeted group for advertisers. the stuff i've read has been incredible so far.

i'm such a nerd

what we're told

2005-01-15T13:04:00.000-08:00

so, after a long and very stressful week of class and work, jo, jose, moe and i went to lexington to go to chipotle (the best mexican ever). so, after about an hour and a half of driving around lexington and having a dance party in jo's car, we found chipotle. i rapped for them and i pretty much showed just how white i am. so, after some chipotle goodness, we headed over to krispy kream donuts. i bought a dozen cream filled donuts...yeah, i'm a fatass. we headed back to berea afterward. on the way home, we talked about work and stuff. i had a blast.

today, is the first day in which have nothing to do. i love it! after this, i'm gonna head over to mcdonalds and get some mad munchies. tonight, we are gonna have a movie marathon of "saved," and "napoleon dynamite." today, i'm just gonna chill, do some homework, and finish a application for a summer job.

i really want the something corporate dvd. is it any good?

i got a 100 on my first test for short term! i was so excited that i came back to my room to celebrate with a nap. i needed one, the night before was crazy and i ended up emptying a bottle of peach schnapps (not too strong, but i got it all in one swig).

i heart short term

big macs...mmmmm...calling my name

sing them all to sleep

2005-01-13T23:28:00.000-08:00

friends can be frustrating sometimes. but oh well. i get over it. things are good

short term is going great so far. i have put in 48 hours of work so far. gonna be a great paycheck.

not in a typing mood

sorry...

"life is incomplete without honesty."

and the nightmare stops

2005-01-12T23:36:00.000-08:00

i have been in a really wierd mood lately. so many things are hitting me at once and i just want to tell everyone to go away and let me work this out on my own. i hate bitching to others because i know that everyone has problems to work through, and mine are not that bad...it just gets me down sometimes when i lack the ability to communicate. though, past experiences with close people and me opening up to them ended up becoming their trgedy and a disaster overall. so, here i am pouring out my heart to a keyboard. things just hit me tonight when we were walking down to get a slurpee and to hang out at the gas station...clerks style. so, for now, i'm just gonna let my mind wander, do some homework and let things work themselves out. that's what the world is...darwin was exactly right in his theories of evolution and humans. things do evolve into better situations.

class has been good. i think that i did good on my first test and i have been keeping up with everything. work is great too. it's crazy, but it is work. right now, i am staying busy with the freshman and trying to come up with a schedule for people who care. i got february done!

okay, so it is off to reading and then a shot of gin, and i will be out. goodnight world and maybe tomorrow i will wake up out of this mood.

pull the trigger and the nightmare stops

2005-01-10T19:40:00.000-08:00

okay, so it's not that crazy, and i would never advocate suicide. i just like that lyric. anyway, the first wekk of short term was crazy. work has been awesome and my class is so interesting. i had a test on friday, i'm feeling pretty good about it.

i found out that at the end of the month, i will be headed to memphis for a micah 6 conference. i fly out that friday. it should be cool, i get to fly and i will get saturday night in downtown memphis. not too shabby. but, i have to get up and fly back to lexington the next day. and then i will have a few days off so i may drive home or just chill here. i haven't decided...depends on how tired i am.

this past weekend i was up in louisville at the goatwalker coffee house. it's a place for the homeless to rest and forget their troubles for one night. we took the freshman bonner class to work at it ( i had to do it last year) it was open mic, and after persuasion from my friends, i signed up. the guy was cool. he let me borrow his guitar and was like, i'll sign you up for four songs. four songs! unrehearsesd...on the spot. so, i got up when they called for me and started jamming some "my departure" and half way through the first verse, the A string breaks. i was like: "i'm done" laughed and got off stage. it was hilarious, we all were laughing and the little girls at my table kept laughing at me. so, he had another act come on, changed string and called me back up. so, i start with "my departure" and "forget my name." at the end, i was frantic trying to find a song to play, and in a span of five seconds, my mouth said" "this next song is called 'there is' by boxcar racer." i wonder if i remember how to play it as i started. surprisingly, i did and it turned out pretty cool. i love that one. so, for my closer, i played "play crack the sky." i went crazy at the last part and i was sweating by the end. it was fun. we also took the freshman on a tour of the lower-income places and how they were tearing down projects...it was sad. but i won't get on my soapbox on poverty and homelessness.

white noise was a pretty good movie. michael keaton is awesome.

jose, david, and i went to chipotle tonight. it was some good mexican food. best tacos ever. real beef.

homework and laundry time. got about 80 pages on consumerism to read...yep, it's my major...

grenade jumper

2005-01-04T13:53:00.000-08:00

new years freakin rocked! i drove down to chattanooga with shawn and we partied all night. we ended up watching napoleon dynamite. it was great. the next day, we went to a massive mall and hung out in a few stores. we then went back for a nap and then back to the house we spent new years at. we rented the other sister and there's something about mary. it was great. we had to get up early the next morning to drive to berea....bah

classes started yesterday. my class is gonna be a lot of stress. four books in one month with a test every week and a reading journal. it'll be crazy, but if i keep up with the reading (averaging 50 pages per night) then i'll be good to go.

work is pretty cool. i get to work with the freshman program. we are gonna do some rad things and watch some really cool documentaries including: farenheit 911, farenhype 911, supersize me, god bless the child, and latter days. the last two make me cry. in god bless the child, a mother has to abandon her child so her child would get adopted and have a better life. it is so sad. latter days is a love story about a liberal l.a. guy and a mormon missionary. the two fall in love, but things go wrong when families find out and the ending is just so perfect. i maybe republican, but this story is one of the most powerful ones that i have seen. it's gonna be a great short term and i am gonna get to learn a lot about issues.

anyway, enough crying, on to fun things. i went to see the forgotten last night. that was the gayest movie ever. so glad it only cost a dollar fifty. this weekend, we are gonna go see white nosie. on saturday, i am off to louisville with the freshman to work at a homeless coffee house. that should be fun.

off to work

snowboarding and some bruises

2004-12-30T17:45:00.000-08:00

for the first two days of this week, i was on the slopes at winterplace snowboarding. man, it was insane the first day. every flippin snowblower was on and the temperature was flirting with 10. i got some good runs in, but was not satisfied until i came back that night to hit some new jumps. i came back home and hit the hot tub. i was gonna stay, but i grew tired of my brother and left him with his wife. the next day, i had this horrible migraine. i was gonna stay in bed and sleep it off until my brother started being a dick. we had a big argument in which i was dissed for being a sociology major...oh well, i guess we all can't be money whores. so i get back on the slopes with a new motto fresh from the malice and contempt that i held toward him. screw it i said, and i just plowed ahead. i went reckless and found that the only thing i had to worry about was dadging stupid tourrists. i got some good runs and awesome jumps. i went over to the terrain park to try a rail. i hit it once, had a good grind and gott off only to slip and shortly fall after. i redeemed my self with a jump over a ramp following the rail. it was a good time at winterplace and i loved it all.

afterward, my cousins came out to the house. my cousin logan downed a whole six pack in less than two hours while connan hit a 40 and chris did his thing. i didn't drink. we went to the hot tub and just chilled. i ran over to my neighbor's house and mooned them, that was fun. slowly, people started going inside. logan and i stayed out and talked about college and social issues. hmmmm....

my whole family on my dad's side had dinner the next day...that sucked.

i got my guitar fixed and got both of my basses fixed up and ready to go. i bought the mxpx "b-movie". this is a must have for any mxpx fans. it has a five song ep in it with three new acoustic songs and two covers of their own stuff. i love it. then i got the keane album which is so far, so good.

anyway, i am gonna go pack and go visit my grandpa, i head out tomorrow for new years, should be fun!

no contractual obligation

2004-12-25T13:14:00.000-08:00

so, merry christmas everybody! i hope that everyone had a good break! lastnight was cool. we had ham and then opened presents. i got some money, so i am stoked. today, we are gonna go to my aunt's house and celebrate with my mom's side of the family. it's gonna be a day of music, food, and video games. some of my favorite things! we are gonna do this dirty santa thing, i can't wait until someone opens the humping dog i bought.

so lately, i have been stuck on something coporate. they are working on a new album. but, i have been a on a big emo kick. my family from florida is coming in today. i'm pretty excited because we are gonna spend all day monday snowboarding. i can't wait to get out there and try some new stuff. i have to decided to go crazy this year and if i break something, it won't be in vain.

just a few more days until new years...which means chattanooga baby! it's gonna be a day/night of partying. i have been getting ready for it. last night, i fell asleep beside a empty gin bottle. :) my dad helped.

okay, so i gotta take a shower, i smell and i have be ready to leave soon and i still gotta wrap some stuff. merry christmas guys and i hope that everyone had a great time with their family and friends. plus, like stephen said, remember why we are doing all of this!

scared to death of eternity

2004-12-22T17:38:00.000-08:00

well, i have been home for roughly one week. it's been pretty cool, somewhat dull, but cool. chris and i have been playing a lot of video games. yeah, halo 2 was actually a decent game...who knew?

yesterday, i went and bought the most sweet movie ever....napoleon dynamite! i took it over to some friends and we watched that and saved. we had a good time. but i had to wait in line for like 15 minutes to buy the movie. it is insane how crazy people are around this time of the year.

my cousin got in from germany the other day. he had us all out to look at his pictures from his trip. it was awesome. i hope that i travel next short term. i am determined to get to ireland.

but i am still missing my berea family. i can't wait until new years...kickin party in chattanooga. hey, i really don't care, just as long as i am not at my bro's inlaws or here. new years with family after college just isn't fun.

i still gotta do some christmas shopping. i bought a humping dog for a random person in my family. some new game we are doing this year. chris and i also made a trip to the liquor store...that was fun

but anyway, i am gonna get off of here and hit a bottle of gin. merry christmas, or whatever

where the hell am i?

2004-12-17T19:06:00.000-08:00

so, i drove home yesterday. the drive was...interesting. i took kristi home and i decided to go home a different way. after dropping kristi off, i headed off towards hazard, then to pikeville, and finally the border. how the hell i ended up in charleston is beyond me. i hate wv roads, they never go where you need them to go.

well, i did get home in time for the gbcs christmas play. i am so glad that i am not there anymore. the whole thing was sad. it's like they threw something together in three days. well, the mandolin jam that mr warden did was pretty cool, but yeah.

i went out with a bunch of high school friends, we had some good times at applebess, but i was ready to get home and sleep. i hadn't been home yet. so, after applebees, i took off and headed for bed.

two days into the break and i am already bored. looking forward to new years. being home is good, it's nice to relax with no obligations...but tv gets old fast...hopefully we'll get some snow so i can hit winterplace

this is the song that reminds me of my trucker hat

2004-12-14T13:59:00.000-08:00

yeah, so i just got back from my problems of american institutions test...i don't wanna talk about it. but, i totally rocked my sociology final. i had to mofo beat in less than 15 minutes. i have one more to go. western civ. i have a study guide and we are allowed to use notes for the essays. it won't be bad...it's just getting the notes ready that sucks.

i have most of my crap packed, though i am not leaving until thursday. i am taking kristi home and i will be driving a new way. a way of just back roads until i hit bluefield. that should be fun with the recent snowing i am hearing about.

i bought the bowling for soup cd last night. it's good pop-punk. i like it. plus, it's got 17 tracks.
we went to o' charleys last night to get cheese wedges. we are fat kids.

well, hopefully, this time tomorrow, i'll be all packed up and partying. or hanging out, whatever, whichever does not involve school. i should make it home just in time for the awesome and always spectacular christmas production put on by greater beckley...yeah right. i'm kinda looking forward to seeing everybody.

christmas is gonna be awesome. i did some shopping today for my parents and grandparents, i gotta find something for my brother and sister-in-law.

well, off to dinner, and then a five hour marathon of history!!!! i hate my minor....

last day o' class

2004-12-10T18:07:00.000-08:00

yes, yesterday was the last day of class. i had to go to jose's class yesterday and perform some eveningside songs: "forget my name," and "my departure." it went well. jose had like this big powerpoint about me and my old band eveningside. after that, i slept until i had to get up and go to financial aid and explain my tax form to them. thank god my mom knows this stuff. i went to film class and found out that i got a B+ for that class. that makes me happy, it was the most boring class ever...but the professor was...entertaining shall we say? we went to a club later on, that was okay. i'm not a big club person, but it was just hanging out with friends. i danced with them for a little bit, but then later we just chilled on some couches. we went to arbys afterward.

samantha stayed in shawn's room last night. we stayed up and watched some of gladiator until 3. then i had to crash. today, i had to do a micah 6 run and then i went to the sociology office to go over all of my tests to prep for the final. it's not a big part of the grade, but, i really wanna do good on it. i have a bunch of notes and i am right now typing those. all of my other finals are not cumulative and i think they are all short answer and essays thank god.

well, i'll be home on thursday late. i am taking kristi home to corbin and then i am gonna go home a different way. gonna take a bunch of back roads. should be home late, but it's gonna be fun.

ps- what does "pwnd" mean? i have been seeing it and i have no idea what it stands for.

well, back to sociology...tonight should be fun.

collision

2004-12-08T00:13:00.000-08:00

okay, so on sunday, we all decided to try to find sam's club in lexington. we ended up driving in circles and never finding it. i know it's there...i have seen it. well, we went to target instead and i bought the new linkin park/jay-z cd. i love that cd. it's six great songs with awesome mixtures. it is so good.

long day yesterday, got up at 8 and got in bed around 4am. but, i got the rest of my work done for the semester. so, i slept today until 1. i got up, went to work. i was at my desk checking homework when i got an email saying that my short term class had been canceled. the professor claimed that he emailed us to ask if it was important (of course he didn't) and went ahead and canceled it. i really needed this class, but what can you do when you have a lazy professor who refuses to teach a small class. so, instead of the school being cool and letting us pick a class from the whole catelogue, we got stuck with the leftovers. registration here is done by credits. freshman usually go last...well, it was mostly upperclassmen. we got screwed pretty much. i found a sociology class about consumerism. i heard that it is hard. so, i was kinda pissed. short term is a time to relax...not be stressed. oh well, i have friends in there, so that's good.

my friend samantha got a job today! next semester she will have a five hour in celts with tutoring.

i bought the seinfeld dvd today too

well, it's been long today, i had a major issue come up between friends this evening (don't wanna talk about it). we ended up screaming at each other on the phone...i hung up....it'll be better tomorrow...going to bed...last day of three of my classes...goodtimes....bedtime

another lesson to be learned

2004-12-03T20:49:00.000-08:00

hey, i'm gonna post a day after my last one! what a miracle. i got my institutions test back, i got a 100, i was stoked. went to work, did stuff there, mainly halped kristi with timesheets and folded newsletters. after that, kristi and i went to richmond. i wanted to buy the movie "saved." that is such a great movie. so true too. anyone who attended a christian school that got too...whatever, should watch this one. it's hilarious, it's got macauley culkin in a chair...how great is that? plus, it's got a good meaning about how the world is not black and white, only grey. i love it. i just watched it. i think steve and lando will get a kick out of it ( a lot of waving the hands in the air tyoe thing). check it out, you won't be disappointed, maybe offended...but enlightened. well, i am off to the coffee house. we all decided to go down there and chill after a long week. next week is gonna be a cinch. i have a test, but it will not be too bad. i'm gonna go get me some great coffee and hear some good music.

hey, i might be changing my summer plans. two reasons: i wanna work at a challenging camp, and we are gonna get a team initated study to ireland next january. i might go work at hiram house in ohio. jose said that it is awesome, so i'm gonna give that a try.

so i'm off...coffee time. i heart the weekends

2004-12-02T19:36:00.000-08:00

So, it has been awhile since my last post. I wonder if people read it anymore...So, I got to go to Chattanooga to take a friend home. That was fun. We had a blast getting there. Random s`tops for ice cream and stores with indians on them. Yeah. So, we got there and we went out to eat with some of Sam's friends and then into the city to see some friends. We then went to one of her friend's houses on a river there. It was an awesome house. Reminded me of Flat Top. We did not go to bed until really late. We kept sitting up and laughing at stupid things, mainly Sam's retard impressions. We got up the next morning and hit the road. Shawn had to be back for some rehersals. I went back to CELTS to do some homework and study for a test. It was a fun trip.

I went home the next day after my institutions test. It was easy. The drive was not too bad and I was over the speed limit the whole time. Home was okay. I spent most of it sleeping and watching Comedy Central. I went out with Landon, Ashley, Staphanie, and Shawn to a movie. It sucked. Horrible...no good. Fazoli's was fun and I think Shawn had a good time. I drove him around to show him the calamity known as Beckley. I forgot how far everything is from everywhere. Thanksgiving was also a good time. We had family at the house until really late. It was nice.

I came back on Sunday to write a paper for Western Civ. That was horrible. I got that done pretty fast probably did not put enough time into it. Well, classes, meetings, and hours of work later, I am sitting at my desk in CELTS delaying homework. I love having a key to this place. I never would have thought that I would have a key to a friggin building in college.

Classes end next week. Can't wait, but then I think of how worse next semester is gonna be and then I wish for this one to end. I am dropping Berea Buddies, but picking up gymnastics, college republicans, and sociology club. Oh, I get to be the secretary for the sociology club. Plus, 19 hours of class, 15 hours of work, and roughly 1o hours of volunteer time. Gonna be fun. Here's the schedule: Mon, Wed, Fri: 8-9:30: Statistics; 9:30-11: Precal; 11-12: Western Civ 2 and stress mangament at 2. Tues and Thurs: Cultural Anthropology at 8 until 10. Some fun classes, but all in the morning.

I am moving too. Gonna move in with Shawn downstairs. We're gonna have a cool room. He btought back a keyboard and guitar. We are gonna try to get a band rolling. Probably just something fun for us to just hang out and play, nothing big. Our band is gonna be called: Where's Arnie. Wanna guess where that comes from? Only the greatest movie ever: What's Eating Gilbert Grape.

Jose has to write a paper about a musician. Yeah, he picked me...so I get to go to his class and play a song...nervous.

I really need to do some homework.

flying solo

2004-11-19T20:48:00.000-08:00

Okay, so it's been awhile since I have been on here. Once again...I stay to friggin busy. Last week, I had two massive tests and a paper due. That was crazy, but things are starting to wind down. PWC is done for the semester, no more outings until the children's hospital in January.

Last friday, Kettering had a coffee house had a open-mic night. After some intense practicing and periods of doubt, I went to play. My set list was: "Soco Amaretto Lime" by Brand New "Forget My Name" by EveningSide and "Call Me Al" by Paul Simon (I-12) Version. I was surprised. The people liked me. I even screwed up in "Forget My Name," stopped and said: "I messed up." They cheered at that part and after every song. When I was done I said that I was finished and got up to leave and they wanted more. They wanted an encore! I was so stoked. I had no idea what to play. A few friends wanted to hear "Praises and Worships" off of mine and steve's super salamander ep. They keep singing that part steve, that and the bnass is too sexy. You've impacted us steve! Anyway, I had no idea and then one person said 'Play crack the sky." SO I did. It was awesome. I was super excited about it

This week, not too much. Just a crap load of homework and stuff. Tomorrow we are headed to Chatanooga and will be back on Sunday. Roadtrip! ANyway, I'll be going home on Monday for break! Sleep...sleep...sleeep....and more....sleep.